*sigh*...

I often look and read other people's blogs, and it makes me want to try the plan they follow. Everyone seems to be doing weight watchers, then I remember what my point limit is, and I look through the book, and look up the things I like to eat, and then I get disappointed and discouraged when I see how much some foods are in points! One meal I love and only get occasionally is the famous bowl from KFC- 17 points... and then I get fed up.

I love the idea of low carb because I felt better and full, and had energy, and I'm a meat eater- so it was great! Then there came the issue of summer and wanting ice cream, and I love bread and potatoes and so many of the forbidden carbs!! I got discouraged there when the avg person lost 9-10 pounds the first week...and me, I only lost 5, and then maybe 1 pound there after.

What to do, what to do.... It's always the issue. I love food, but how can I possibly cut back on my caloric intake, and increase my exercise?? I just don't know. I start off my day pretty well, then by mid afternoon, I'm way off track. I have to figure out what will work for me, and being able to eat what I like, but in moderation instead of settling for "diet foods"- I ordinarilly don't eat rice cakes, so why waste the money on them when they just sit in the cabinet- oh yeah, i forgot i read a plan that said they were good for a snack. I need to eat better well balanced meals, I know. But it sucks!

Anyhoo, I won't stress over that right now. I'll figure something out.

I was hired for a job- I went yesterday to the orientation, and well- lets just say that job is completely and totally not for me. After discussing it with my parents, they said to let the place know, I won't be working for them. I came home, and ate myself into a food coma because it stressed me out so bad, and as an emotional eater thats what I did! The schedule they wanted me to work, on top of nursing school was out of this world. I get out of class at 4:30 on some days (today for example) so they wanted me to work from 5pm until 12am, all throughout the week. Mind you I have 8am classes, and 7am clinicals, so after being expected to work until 12am, I would still have to come home and do homework or study and then be expected to get up at 5:30 in the morning to get ready and make it to my 7am clinical. They said a bunch of times they'll work around my class schedule, great! but do you know anyone in nursing school, or who has gone through nursing school? it's not the average college curriculumn. It is severely time consuming, and entails a lot of reading, research and work! With a schedule like that during the week- WHEN DO I HAVE TIME TO SLEEP?!!!!??? This was one of the problems last semester, other than some personal issues, I worked a full time overnight job which severely interfered with my grades. I need something simple, I don't mind working the weekends, but give me a break. I am by no means at all Super Woman. I'll look for something else in the meantime, maybe a little restaurant or coffee shop, or something like that. Something that allows me to leave at a reasonable hour and still have time to do homework and gives me time for myself.

Since I'm only dealing with school at the current moment, that will definitely give me time to work on getting healthy and finding different activites that I will enjoy and allow me to drop some pounds, lose some inches, and get fit. Getting healthy and working out can be a full time job in itself, let alone everything else I am trying to do.

Just for now, I am trying to set a small goal. I want to get out of the 200's. My effort is going to focus on getting out of that range of numbers, and I say small because I don't totally have that many pounds to lose to get there, but I want a 1 starting my weight, NOT A 2!! I ultimately want to get healthy and feel better, so weight loss isn't my exact focus, but it will be a big plus. I have some health issues, and I need to build myself up, so those issues don't get out of hand.

Well, off to class. Hope you all have a fabulous weekend!