Back and Forth...

I always go back and forth between diets, I did low carb for a while, lost a few pounds, stopped because of my health problems and lack of focus, and then of course gained the weight lost back, plus some. I bought books of The Biggest Loser, they're very helpful- however it is so inconvenient to count calories... I'm almost tossing around the idea of going back on WW just because its easier to look up point values for take out places than to count the calories of what the heck your eating in a restaurant. I like to eat at home, but I also like to go out once in a while. Ugh, it's just one of those things. Maybe I can follow the Biggest Loser plan, but instead of counting every calorie, I'll just count it in a point value. Most recipe's reccomended by the biggest loser books are WW friendly. Ohhh so many decisions. I just need to be able to do something that is going to be convenient in a sense for snacking and what I can bring to school to eat. I've been bringing things to eat at school, and its actually saving me from the horrible vending machine choices I've routinely gotten in the past.

I've definitely become a major coffee addict though. I don;t know what it is but here lately I love coffee. Eating wise, I am definitely making better choices. At least I think so. I also have given up soda. I have one once in a blue moon. Other than that I have been drinking water. I occassionally use the diet snapple and crystal light packets. Those are nice to have in handy as well.

I went and searched through some old things where I had a lost a ton of weight before, and am going to try to go back to my old plan somewhat and combine the biggest loser, and maybe ww. I want the most bang for my buck here! lol Lack of a better metaphor, but I've spent tons of money on diet and fitness books, equipment, gym memberships, etc... I want to get the most out of it.

I went out and bought a lovely desk calendar (which I prefer to hang on the back of my bedroom door than sit on the desk) and I am going to use it to track my daily events of course, and my weightloss and exercise progress as well. I had a smaller one, but it just didn't do it for me. I won it at a bridal shower, so it didn't hurt me too much to toss the thing and go back to the way I used to do things. I have cute little stickers that I'm going to use to track my progress, and etc.

From last week to now, I was down 2 pounds. I feel good about it. I'm hoping if I can work things out here, that I'll be able to go for 3 pounds this week. I'm thinking of alternating weekly trying different workout routines and gym rotations to see what will work. Obviously I need a serious commitment to all of this, but I'm feeling better, and have had much impovement in my emotional and mental life... Now I'm hoping to improve the physical aspects.

I recently went to an LL Cool J concert, and jokingly I posted a picture of him that I had taken on to my facebook saying "My husband" I found out later that the "friends" I keep on facebook were laughing at me and making rude remarks about how LL Cool J wouldn't even look twice at my fat ass. Now, I realize that, but I know I've gained weight... and these girls that call themselves friends, are nothing to write home about themselves... I've been skinny before, and yes as the emotional eater I am, and the I hate to exercise personality I have... I gained a significant amount of weight over the last 4 years. All those "friends" of mine can kiss my ass. I don't even care that they were trying to say hurtful things, but once this is all said and done, and I'm back on track... I'll be the one laughing last.

Anywho- off to class I go.

Have a great and Healthy Day!!