Morning Bike Ride

I went for a mid-morning bike ride. I went for about 30 minutes, along the water of West river. I live on the Island, so I'm surrounded by water. I actually felt a little self conscious about it too. I thought to myself what a fool I'd look like riding my bike by myself around. I hesitated, but said forget it...pulled on the bike and started pedaling down the street. I didn't go long. 1. I'm out of shape, and 2. Bikes weren't exactly made for girls, at least not heavy girls like myself- it's very uncomfortable in certain places!

Anyway, I've managed to add somethings to my blog. Apparently I'm not very blogger savvy at all. adding section tabs was a big improvement. I managed to do my measurements and post them! (cringe)- but hey I have to face the facts of what and who I am.

I keep tossing around the idea of staying on a structured program or going low carb. My problem is food. I love sweets, I love bread... I love all things bad for you! My mom once did Atkins when it was the new craze back in the late 90's. I remember she lost 30 pounds in a month. She and all the other girls in the hospital read the book, and carried the book, and did everything they were supposed to with the book. My mom was a cheat though. She did it full force M-F, and cheated Saturday and Sunday still managing to drop 30 pounds. How she did it, I'll never really know, but I wonder if I could do it and maintain it.

Weight watchers once had 2 different programs where it was the points program, and they also had a core program which was a modification of atkins, and south beach, but I guess they did away with that.

My goal right now is to lose 5% of my total body weight. I have another 6 pounds to go, and a dress to fit into next weekend for my cousins wedding. It's an old dress- I said I wasnt buying anything new, but I don't even know if I can fit in it. When I wore the dress last, I was around that weight when I bought it, so I'm hoping if I could just loose a little more I'll fit into it comfortably.

I have errands to run this afternoon, and an appointment with physical therapy. But, I plan on an evening at the gym. Sometimes I wish I had someone to go with me. A motivational partner, but part of changing my health, is changing the people around me that are toxic to my health, and I realize more and more that the friends I once called my friends aren't healthy to my life, they don't want the same things I want. They don't have the education I have, and we don't have much in common other than we grew up together, and we partied together. I've invited one of my friends many times to come work out with me- she is also a heavy girl like myself since shes always crying about her weight, she always says yes, then turns around and says no... then later cries that shes fat and no one wants her. She's an enabler, who never has time to change her situation. I'm exhausted enough let alone dealing with all of that. Anyway, I'm going to the gym for myself. I'm going to do this for me!