Motivation!!!

A motivating factor....

One of the biggest things that disgusts me, are all those bright lights in a fitting room, that just let you SEE EVERY FLAW ON YOUR BODY.... ugh, as if it isn't already hard enough trying on clothes, you have those bright lights, and extra big mirrors..... ::Sigh::: it is what it is-- for now that it.

I decided that since I SO badly dislike the way I look with or without clothing on, that I would take a photo or two in a bra and some panties, and keep them handy so that when I feel like I'm going off the deep end into chocolate heaven, I can sneak a peak at those photos, and STOP right in my tracks. My biggest craving is chocolate.... it kills me every time. There's no stop or end for me when it comes to chocolate.

I laugh because when I worked at Applebee's some time ago- I swear I ate a Triple Chocolate Meltdown EVERY SINGLE DAY I WORKED.... Needless to say, back then I could afford to eat those because I was about 60 pounds lighter. Calories weren't so much an issue back then. But then one day, I decided to look up the calorie content of a triple chocolate meltdown, and if my memory serves me correctly- it was about 1500 calories.................................. haven't had one in forever because of it!

EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE..... that's what I'm working on.
I downloaded the craziest App on my phone. it was $1.99, but I thought hey lets check it out, it might be fun. It's called Zombies, Run! Its a c25k app that has a whole story line, it's actually pretty cool, you put your ear buds in, and it gives you the story, and walks you through the vacant town, and little community of humans non zombie (I usually Imagine The Walking dead) but then it goes into tell you when to jog, and when to run from the zombies... it's the craziest thing... but I think it may work for me to get me to run a 5K. I can't even walk half the time, let alone run, so it's going to be a work in progress, but supposedly if you follow through and do it as it's instructed you'll be able to run a 5k in about 6 weeks. We'll see. I haven't started it yet, I just downloaded it today, and went through the program to see what it was about. I really think I am going to enjoy it. The first week is alot of walking around and getting used to the story line. So wish me luck. If I can get through it, then my plan is to sign up for the dirty girl mud run in September. :)

I AM GOING TO DO THIS!!