So my measurements.... I NEVER WANT TO SEE NUMBERS LIKE THESE AGAIN!!!!!
I know I'm still at the top end of my highest weight ever, but I'm still in a mindset that my body can handle what it used to when I was 50 pounds lighter, and it just cannot. I am much slower paced than I was before, and my ankles and knees just dont handle the weight so well when jogging. I definitely am no where near being able to run because the strain on my joints is a bit much. I know it's all this extra weight. But I pushed and did what I could.
I completed the first mission on the Zombie run, and I'm not gonna lie, they say to run throughout the whole thing, but I just can't I walked most of it, and jogged as I could. My body is in no shape to do any running, but I pushed through it and completed my first mission. I get a little confused sometimes though because the app kinda goes silent for periods of time, and from what I'm getting is I'm supposed to be running during those 10 minute silences, but I just can't I tried to do intervals of jogging for as much as i could, then walking to catch my breath, then going back to jogging. I spent more time walking though because my body is waaaay out of shape.
I just keep telling myself today was only the first day, it's going to get easier, but at least I got up and finished it!
The mission itself was about 32 mins. I did it around my neighborhood which is a 2.1 mile walk so in all it took me about 45 mins to complete.
I CANNOT GIVE UP.
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Last day of the month...
Today is my brothers 25th birthday. I don't know where time has gone. I feel so old saying my brothers are 25 and 11- people generally tend to think the 11 year old is mine. Buuuuuuuuuut he's not. Anyhoo- I'm trying to avoid cake and junk. lol
Today I'm taking my measurements to see where I am starting at on this 1 month journey of fitness/exercise. I'm not going to post them until the end of the month when I have my comparison results. So for now, I'll write them down and keep them in a spot for safe keeping and later posting.
I don't care if I don't feel the greatest... I AM going to start my c25k app today. I think the first day is only a 32 minute workout and consists of mostly walking, so I am going to get up and get myself going with this app. I think I read all the reviews posted for it, and everyone loved it, and said that once you get past the initial stages you get really involved in the story line, and feel guilty if you skip a workout and don't keep up with the story, so I am very interested in seeing how true this is for me.
I read all the things about statistics and how long it will take to make and break a habit, and it looks as though the happy medium is somewhere around 21 days. So THREE weeks. It seems like such a long time, but in actuality those 3 weeks will fly by like they never even came. So, that was a major reason why I am forcing myself to commit to the 30 days because every 4 days is a rest day according to these calendars. I want to make changes in my lifestyle and I WANT to see RESULTS.... I just have to get together the energy and will power. I am already saying I have to and NEED to do this, my mind is there, but I just need to get over other things causing my problems in my life and FORCE myself to get through. It's always the hardest in the beginning. And this 10 pound loss from July is some motivation, but not enough on its own. SO OFF I GO.... to do what I need to do. :)
Today I'm taking my measurements to see where I am starting at on this 1 month journey of fitness/exercise. I'm not going to post them until the end of the month when I have my comparison results. So for now, I'll write them down and keep them in a spot for safe keeping and later posting.
I don't care if I don't feel the greatest... I AM going to start my c25k app today. I think the first day is only a 32 minute workout and consists of mostly walking, so I am going to get up and get myself going with this app. I think I read all the reviews posted for it, and everyone loved it, and said that once you get past the initial stages you get really involved in the story line, and feel guilty if you skip a workout and don't keep up with the story, so I am very interested in seeing how true this is for me.
I read all the things about statistics and how long it will take to make and break a habit, and it looks as though the happy medium is somewhere around 21 days. So THREE weeks. It seems like such a long time, but in actuality those 3 weeks will fly by like they never even came. So, that was a major reason why I am forcing myself to commit to the 30 days because every 4 days is a rest day according to these calendars. I want to make changes in my lifestyle and I WANT to see RESULTS.... I just have to get together the energy and will power. I am already saying I have to and NEED to do this, my mind is there, but I just need to get over other things causing my problems in my life and FORCE myself to get through. It's always the hardest in the beginning. And this 10 pound loss from July is some motivation, but not enough on its own. SO OFF I GO.... to do what I need to do. :)
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
July Monthly Progress
Today was my last weigh in for this month, and I LOST exactly 10 pounds (I had a .4 ounce gain, and I know it's from my period, so it's no big deal to me).
July has been my best month yet!!
Tomorrow I am taking my measurements since it's the last day in the month, and the the day after that is August 1st! So my 30 day challenge will begin very shortly. I printed off my 30 day calendars and hung them on the back of my bedroom door so that I always look at them as a reminder that things need to get done!
Of course I would like to see another 10 pound loss for the month of August, but this month like I said before, I am really focusing more on the numbers when it comes to the exercise. I have to make exercise a part of my life. I don't have a choice. It has to be done. It's a necessity for me if I am ever going to get this weight off. The only problem I face with exercising, is it increasing my metabolism and my want to eat because of an increased appetite. I'm not so much going to be counting calories. I am just going to use common sense, and make better choices instead of sitting down for Pizza and wings like the family ordered last night, I'll make myself a salad and grill some chicken or something. It has to be something SENSIBLE.
One goal I also have for the month is that if it lasts for longer than a week, I probably shouldn't eat it. I'm going to go with fresh veggies, and fruits and fill up on those instead of filling up on boxed pastas and pre-packaged frozen dinners which generally have tons of preservatives and tons of sodium in them.
I also need to drink more water. Plain ol' water. I drink a lot, but here lately I've been drinking regular ginger ale like crazy, but I think it's because it settles my stomach when I don't feel well.
Im so happy about my 10 pound loss! It's time to keep this up!
July has been my best month yet!!
Tomorrow I am taking my measurements since it's the last day in the month, and the the day after that is August 1st! So my 30 day challenge will begin very shortly. I printed off my 30 day calendars and hung them on the back of my bedroom door so that I always look at them as a reminder that things need to get done!
Of course I would like to see another 10 pound loss for the month of August, but this month like I said before, I am really focusing more on the numbers when it comes to the exercise. I have to make exercise a part of my life. I don't have a choice. It has to be done. It's a necessity for me if I am ever going to get this weight off. The only problem I face with exercising, is it increasing my metabolism and my want to eat because of an increased appetite. I'm not so much going to be counting calories. I am just going to use common sense, and make better choices instead of sitting down for Pizza and wings like the family ordered last night, I'll make myself a salad and grill some chicken or something. It has to be something SENSIBLE.
One goal I also have for the month is that if it lasts for longer than a week, I probably shouldn't eat it. I'm going to go with fresh veggies, and fruits and fill up on those instead of filling up on boxed pastas and pre-packaged frozen dinners which generally have tons of preservatives and tons of sodium in them.
I also need to drink more water. Plain ol' water. I drink a lot, but here lately I've been drinking regular ginger ale like crazy, but I think it's because it settles my stomach when I don't feel well.
Im so happy about my 10 pound loss! It's time to keep this up!
Sunday, July 28, 2013
August 30 Day Challenge....
I've decided to make a 30 day Challenge for myself. I'm going to be using 3 of the 30 day workout schedule calendars to follow from August 1st to August 30th. I have to commit to these next 30 days to MAKE THIS A HABIT!!!!
SQUATS
ARMS
ABS
I plan to take my latest measurements August 1st, so that after 30 days of these sem-intense toning exercises I will hopefully see some results. I'm doing this because I want to see a difference in my measurements. I'm not going to focus so much on the number on the scale this month. I more so want to see what exercise is going to do for my body.
I'll also be doing cardio which will range from 30-60 minutes a day.
These activities will probably consist of the 2 mile walk around my neighborhood, as well as Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred, and I am really going to try to commit to the 6 week Zombies Run C25K app.
I'm pretty confident in saying that I have maintained my 10 pound loss for the month of July, However, after my 10 day prescription of Provera to force my period, I am definitely feeling the effects of having it! I finally got it, after going without it for over 2 months. I'm hoping that since this medication caused it, that it will now regulate my body back to normal, even though this isn't typical of the "norm" for me. I know my weight has caused many changes in me, so I'm a work in progress trying to get HEALTHY again.
August is going to be my month! I'm going to form the habit of EXERCISING, and I am going to change my body.
SQUATS
ARMS
ABS
I plan to take my latest measurements August 1st, so that after 30 days of these sem-intense toning exercises I will hopefully see some results. I'm doing this because I want to see a difference in my measurements. I'm not going to focus so much on the number on the scale this month. I more so want to see what exercise is going to do for my body.
I'll also be doing cardio which will range from 30-60 minutes a day.
These activities will probably consist of the 2 mile walk around my neighborhood, as well as Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred, and I am really going to try to commit to the 6 week Zombies Run C25K app.
I'm pretty confident in saying that I have maintained my 10 pound loss for the month of July, However, after my 10 day prescription of Provera to force my period, I am definitely feeling the effects of having it! I finally got it, after going without it for over 2 months. I'm hoping that since this medication caused it, that it will now regulate my body back to normal, even though this isn't typical of the "norm" for me. I know my weight has caused many changes in me, so I'm a work in progress trying to get HEALTHY again.
August is going to be my month! I'm going to form the habit of EXERCISING, and I am going to change my body.
Friday, July 26, 2013
Feeling like real.....CRAP
I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like death has consumed me. I feel sick, and I can barely eat anything at all. I've been trying to eat hear and there, but my stomach is so upset it's not working the greatest. I know it's not healthy, but in being positive maybe I'll drop a few pounds while I'm at it.
I'm so bored, and all I do is sleep, I deactivated my facebook because I just need a break from the rest of the world. I have no energy at all, but my family is on vacation so I have a ton of time to myself. I turned on my computer and decided to sort through some old files. I went through my photobucket and I have some photos on there from when I was at my skinniest, and Ive looked at some recent photo's of myself that I had my brother take for me recently and I've been very disgusted. I've lost 11.4 pounds so far, but it is not even close to showing a difference. Once I get the energy and my strength back up I am going to have to put in some real work and effort in getting myself back to ME.
Because who I am right now at the weight I am right now... IS NOT COOL. I feel horrible, I look horrible, I have to make the changes and I have to be strict, yes, I'm human but it's no excuse, if I want it I really have to work for it. There's no quick fix. and there's NO MORE EXCUSES!!!
I'm so bored, and all I do is sleep, I deactivated my facebook because I just need a break from the rest of the world. I have no energy at all, but my family is on vacation so I have a ton of time to myself. I turned on my computer and decided to sort through some old files. I went through my photobucket and I have some photos on there from when I was at my skinniest, and Ive looked at some recent photo's of myself that I had my brother take for me recently and I've been very disgusted. I've lost 11.4 pounds so far, but it is not even close to showing a difference. Once I get the energy and my strength back up I am going to have to put in some real work and effort in getting myself back to ME.
Because who I am right now at the weight I am right now... IS NOT COOL. I feel horrible, I look horrible, I have to make the changes and I have to be strict, yes, I'm human but it's no excuse, if I want it I really have to work for it. There's no quick fix. and there's NO MORE EXCUSES!!!
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
Motivation!!!
A motivating factor....
One of the biggest things that disgusts me, are all those bright lights in a fitting room, that just let you SEE EVERY FLAW ON YOUR BODY.... ugh, as if it isn't already hard enough trying on clothes, you have those bright lights, and extra big mirrors..... ::Sigh::: it is what it is-- for now that it.
I decided that since I SO badly dislike the way I look with or without clothing on, that I would take a photo or two in a bra and some panties, and keep them handy so that when I feel like I'm going off the deep end into chocolate heaven, I can sneak a peak at those photos, and STOP right in my tracks. My biggest craving is chocolate.... it kills me every time. There's no stop or end for me when it comes to chocolate.
I laugh because when I worked at Applebee's some time ago- I swear I ate a Triple Chocolate Meltdown EVERY SINGLE DAY I WORKED.... Needless to say, back then I could afford to eat those because I was about 60 pounds lighter. Calories weren't so much an issue back then. But then one day, I decided to look up the calorie content of a triple chocolate meltdown, and if my memory serves me correctly- it was about 1500 calories.................................. haven't had one in forever because of it!
EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE..... that's what I'm working on.
I downloaded the craziest App on my phone. it was $1.99, but I thought hey lets check it out, it might be fun. It's called Zombies, Run! Its a c25k app that has a whole story line, it's actually pretty cool, you put your ear buds in, and it gives you the story, and walks you through the vacant town, and little community of humans non zombie (I usually Imagine The Walking dead) but then it goes into tell you when to jog, and when to run from the zombies... it's the craziest thing... but I think it may work for me to get me to run a 5K. I can't even walk half the time, let alone run, so it's going to be a work in progress, but supposedly if you follow through and do it as it's instructed you'll be able to run a 5k in about 6 weeks. We'll see. I haven't started it yet, I just downloaded it today, and went through the program to see what it was about. I really think I am going to enjoy it. The first week is alot of walking around and getting used to the story line. So wish me luck. If I can get through it, then my plan is to sign up for the dirty girl mud run in September. :)
I AM GOING TO DO THIS!!
One of the biggest things that disgusts me, are all those bright lights in a fitting room, that just let you SEE EVERY FLAW ON YOUR BODY.... ugh, as if it isn't already hard enough trying on clothes, you have those bright lights, and extra big mirrors..... ::Sigh::: it is what it is-- for now that it.
I decided that since I SO badly dislike the way I look with or without clothing on, that I would take a photo or two in a bra and some panties, and keep them handy so that when I feel like I'm going off the deep end into chocolate heaven, I can sneak a peak at those photos, and STOP right in my tracks. My biggest craving is chocolate.... it kills me every time. There's no stop or end for me when it comes to chocolate.
EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE..... that's what I'm working on.
I downloaded the craziest App on my phone. it was $1.99, but I thought hey lets check it out, it might be fun. It's called Zombies, Run! Its a c25k app that has a whole story line, it's actually pretty cool, you put your ear buds in, and it gives you the story, and walks you through the vacant town, and little community of humans non zombie (I usually Imagine The Walking dead) but then it goes into tell you when to jog, and when to run from the zombies... it's the craziest thing... but I think it may work for me to get me to run a 5K. I can't even walk half the time, let alone run, so it's going to be a work in progress, but supposedly if you follow through and do it as it's instructed you'll be able to run a 5k in about 6 weeks. We'll see. I haven't started it yet, I just downloaded it today, and went through the program to see what it was about. I really think I am going to enjoy it. The first week is alot of walking around and getting used to the story line. So wish me luck. If I can get through it, then my plan is to sign up for the dirty girl mud run in September. :)
I AM GOING TO DO THIS!!
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Weigh In Day, :)
Well, I am happy to say that even though this journey is the biggest battle and struggle of my life, I am down 4.2 pounds from last weigh in. For me, I'm ecstatic, because its the most I've lost in quite some time. My goal is too keep up with these 10 pound increments. These goals are small, but have the ability to get me where I want to be for myself, and where I need to be for my health.
One thing I slack on is exercise, and as I said before... Maybe walking just isn't cutting it. Maybe I need a more invigorating- is that the right word? Workout to help me meet my goals. That is still something I need to work on.
I've cut down my portion sizes to about half of what I was eating, and I eat small things about every 4 hours. It seems to help me when it comes to waiting hours to eat and feeling famished. That's when I over eat. I'm still horrible at my water intake. I read all these blogs where ppl, are drinking over 100 ounces of water plus some because new weight loss research tells everyone to drink half your body weight in clear plain ol water everyday. I don't know that I'm necessarily in agreence with that because it makes the kidneys work so much harder.
Last spring I bought the cutest jeans. They were on sale when I bought them, so I didn't mind purchasing them to sit in my closet and be my silent motivator. I'm hoping that I can fit them by the time Fall settles in. Their not exactly my ultimate goal jeans, but maybe they are. I don't really know how much weight I need to lose to fit into these jeans. I've even gone as far as cleaning out my old clothes from the different stages of my weight, I have some size 8s, and I have some 10s and 12s. I think I've looked good at all stages, but right now I'm leaning toward losing enough weight to comfortably fit back into my size 12s and that's what these jeans are, a 12. i got rid of a ton of clothes that I had. It was hard to do. I think I was just emotionally attached to the person I was when I wore these clothes, compared to whether I'd ever truly where them again. A lot of it, is from college and some of my biggest party days in Greensboro....and well lord knows I couldn't be seen in the same outfit more than once, and their not everyday clothes either, so they needed to go :)
Crazily enough, even though the number on the scale had been up from the week prior, my measurements had been down. I think that's a motivator too because the scale is not always my friend. He's generally very mean. I know this is going to be a rough road, and probably even a real slow process for me, but now that the numbers are going down, I feel more motivated to keep on track. I need to stay focused on the bigger picture and take it month my month, or day by day if I have to.
1 more weigh in for July, then I'm gonna see another 10 pound loss for August! I can do it!
One thing I slack on is exercise, and as I said before... Maybe walking just isn't cutting it. Maybe I need a more invigorating- is that the right word? Workout to help me meet my goals. That is still something I need to work on.
I've cut down my portion sizes to about half of what I was eating, and I eat small things about every 4 hours. It seems to help me when it comes to waiting hours to eat and feeling famished. That's when I over eat. I'm still horrible at my water intake. I read all these blogs where ppl, are drinking over 100 ounces of water plus some because new weight loss research tells everyone to drink half your body weight in clear plain ol water everyday. I don't know that I'm necessarily in agreence with that because it makes the kidneys work so much harder.
Last spring I bought the cutest jeans. They were on sale when I bought them, so I didn't mind purchasing them to sit in my closet and be my silent motivator. I'm hoping that I can fit them by the time Fall settles in. Their not exactly my ultimate goal jeans, but maybe they are. I don't really know how much weight I need to lose to fit into these jeans. I've even gone as far as cleaning out my old clothes from the different stages of my weight, I have some size 8s, and I have some 10s and 12s. I think I've looked good at all stages, but right now I'm leaning toward losing enough weight to comfortably fit back into my size 12s and that's what these jeans are, a 12. i got rid of a ton of clothes that I had. It was hard to do. I think I was just emotionally attached to the person I was when I wore these clothes, compared to whether I'd ever truly where them again. A lot of it, is from college and some of my biggest party days in Greensboro....and well lord knows I couldn't be seen in the same outfit more than once, and their not everyday clothes either, so they needed to go :)
Crazily enough, even though the number on the scale had been up from the week prior, my measurements had been down. I think that's a motivator too because the scale is not always my friend. He's generally very mean. I know this is going to be a rough road, and probably even a real slow process for me, but now that the numbers are going down, I feel more motivated to keep on track. I need to stay focused on the bigger picture and take it month my month, or day by day if I have to.
1 more weigh in for July, then I'm gonna see another 10 pound loss for August! I can do it!
Friday, July 19, 2013
Completely fell off the wagon....
I hate it.
It seems impossible to do. It's the biggest of my battles, and the worst of my struggles.
I started out SO WELL I lost 9.4 pounds, and then I gained. I didn't gain all of it back, but I gained enough. 3.2. I know this is something I need to work at, but sometimes I just wish it came a little easier.
I get so excited to start something, and low-carb I'm ok eating that way, once I get passed the first few days. And I do enjoy the veggies, and the protein, but then I get bored, and the minute I eat something with a high carb content, i immediately gain the weight right back.
I just don't know what to do. I went to the doctor. I'm not pregnant, but I have some other issues going on with my body. They sent me for a metabolic panel, as well as all types of blood work for my thyroid and they say it's normal. I've stopped ALL medications- everything, and my weight isn't adjusting. So now what? What do I do now? I especially don't understand because my appetite has decreased so significantly because of the heat, I just don't have the energy to eat! I don't know what to do next? A diet pill?
I walk a couple days a week around the neighborhood, it's a 2 mile walk, but maybe that it's going to work for me. MAYBE, I'm the type of person that has to sweat until I'm throwing up from working out so hard, because just the walk isn't doing enough.
I was hired in the hospital that I wanted to work at, so I am happy that I am going to have more of a set schedule, and routine, I want to be on my feet and moving around more because it'll help me hopefully lose some weight, instead of those long classes sitting on my butt.
It's going to be a long process, but I can't give up.
It seems impossible to do. It's the biggest of my battles, and the worst of my struggles.
I started out SO WELL I lost 9.4 pounds, and then I gained. I didn't gain all of it back, but I gained enough. 3.2. I know this is something I need to work at, but sometimes I just wish it came a little easier.
I get so excited to start something, and low-carb I'm ok eating that way, once I get passed the first few days. And I do enjoy the veggies, and the protein, but then I get bored, and the minute I eat something with a high carb content, i immediately gain the weight right back.
I just don't know what to do. I went to the doctor. I'm not pregnant, but I have some other issues going on with my body. They sent me for a metabolic panel, as well as all types of blood work for my thyroid and they say it's normal. I've stopped ALL medications- everything, and my weight isn't adjusting. So now what? What do I do now? I especially don't understand because my appetite has decreased so significantly because of the heat, I just don't have the energy to eat! I don't know what to do next? A diet pill?
I walk a couple days a week around the neighborhood, it's a 2 mile walk, but maybe that it's going to work for me. MAYBE, I'm the type of person that has to sweat until I'm throwing up from working out so hard, because just the walk isn't doing enough.
I was hired in the hospital that I wanted to work at, so I am happy that I am going to have more of a set schedule, and routine, I want to be on my feet and moving around more because it'll help me hopefully lose some weight, instead of those long classes sitting on my butt.
It's going to be a long process, but I can't give up.
Monday, July 15, 2013
I'm back....
Well, I'm back, and tomorrow is weigh In for me, so I'm not sure how well I've done. I haven't done much exercising at all. I NEED TO EXERCISE, even if it's only 30 minutes a day, I have to do something! Even eating was hit or miss. I been going through so much, that I haven;t had much of an appetite. I actually just started eating again today, like a normal person. I think it's just my stress and anxiety.
It's been a rough week, however I took my NCLEX boards and passed, I received my license in the mail today. SO THANK GOD it's over with!!! I couldn't be happier!
I've gone to the doctor and I have a ton of stuff going on with me. I'm waiting on blood work results, so hopefully that will give me some idea of what is going on with me. It's just such a pain in the butt to try so hard to lose weight, and get absolutely no where, but like I said, I know there are some reasons going on with my body that my weight loss is slow going.
I need to get back on my A game with my low carb way. It's been a hectic week, and I even ate KFC today because that's what my mom brought home for dinner, nothing low carb about breaded chicken mashed potatoes and corn.... oh well tomorrow is a new day. I'll figure it out.
We'll see what tomorrow holds.
It's been a rough week, however I took my NCLEX boards and passed, I received my license in the mail today. SO THANK GOD it's over with!!! I couldn't be happier!
I've gone to the doctor and I have a ton of stuff going on with me. I'm waiting on blood work results, so hopefully that will give me some idea of what is going on with me. It's just such a pain in the butt to try so hard to lose weight, and get absolutely no where, but like I said, I know there are some reasons going on with my body that my weight loss is slow going.
I need to get back on my A game with my low carb way. It's been a hectic week, and I even ate KFC today because that's what my mom brought home for dinner, nothing low carb about breaded chicken mashed potatoes and corn.... oh well tomorrow is a new day. I'll figure it out.
We'll see what tomorrow holds.
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
2 week Weigh In
Well, I don't have much time to post about anything going on in my life. But I did want to stop by and say that I am down a total of 9.4 pounds in 2 weeks which is awesome to me!! I am happy with that. Hopefully I can just keep the numbers going down.
I have my boards tomorrow and I am SO NERVOUS i don't know what to do. My heart was broken yesterday by the man I love- so I'm trying to get through everything the best that I possibly can. All I want to do is lay down and cry but I won't let myself. This is a chapter closed in my life. Time to move on no matter how hard it may seem!
I have my boards tomorrow and I am SO NERVOUS i don't know what to do. My heart was broken yesterday by the man I love- so I'm trying to get through everything the best that I possibly can. All I want to do is lay down and cry but I won't let myself. This is a chapter closed in my life. Time to move on no matter how hard it may seem!
Friday, July 5, 2013
Fourth of July Fun and Induction
Yesterday was a pretty busy day with the holiday and all, so I really didn't get the opportunity to post about anything.
I struggled with the decision of it being a holiday and staying completely on track with induction or splurging since some things I rarely get- only about once a year.
I was good, I managed to get through the cookout with just a steak a little steak sauce and a corn on the cob ( i understand its not induction friendly, but for the carb count I had, I could afford that splurge) a little whipped topping for dessert when it came time for all the cakes:::sigh:::. Then once we hit off to Fantasy Island for the fireworks, well that's where I went ahead and ate the fried dough. I rarely get those, so I splurged there and went off my diet. My body definitely is in the works of changing because after a little bit, I was so tired from the sugar, and i started to get symptoms of sugar dumping- first being the mild blurred vision. It's funny that in just 9 days your body can rid yourself of the sugar and know that it hasn't had it in a while, so the reaction time of taking in junk like that is extremely noticable.
On another note, I picked right back where I left off and am continuing on without any set backs. I knew one way or another... something was going to get me, and I would eat it because I do struggle with food issues. I'm happy with the fact that I chose not to overdue it though! I ate in moderation and moved on. It's a new Day!
Once again in my life, I am mending a broken heart, I just want things to change and be different, and I want to keep him in my life, I don't have time to deal with it, so I'll put it off ... back to studying- boards in just a few days!!
I struggled with the decision of it being a holiday and staying completely on track with induction or splurging since some things I rarely get- only about once a year.
I was good, I managed to get through the cookout with just a steak a little steak sauce and a corn on the cob ( i understand its not induction friendly, but for the carb count I had, I could afford that splurge) a little whipped topping for dessert when it came time for all the cakes:::sigh:::. Then once we hit off to Fantasy Island for the fireworks, well that's where I went ahead and ate the fried dough. I rarely get those, so I splurged there and went off my diet. My body definitely is in the works of changing because after a little bit, I was so tired from the sugar, and i started to get symptoms of sugar dumping- first being the mild blurred vision. It's funny that in just 9 days your body can rid yourself of the sugar and know that it hasn't had it in a while, so the reaction time of taking in junk like that is extremely noticable.
On another note, I picked right back where I left off and am continuing on without any set backs. I knew one way or another... something was going to get me, and I would eat it because I do struggle with food issues. I'm happy with the fact that I chose not to overdue it though! I ate in moderation and moved on. It's a new Day!
Once again in my life, I am mending a broken heart, I just want things to change and be different, and I want to keep him in my life, I don't have time to deal with it, so I'll put it off ... back to studying- boards in just a few days!!
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Pinterest Arm Workouts
I've suddenly become completely addicted to pinterest! I didn't realize until now all these wonderful inexpensive workouts that can be done at home! This is exactly what I need! I've had gym memberships, and I have an elliptical and I have a treadmill, but I SO EASILY get bored with these things. I also have a collection of workout DVDs that I can use, however.... back to pinterest. I found some really great things on there for toning, and working out without the monthly expense of a gym.
My arms are on thing I absolutely dislike about myself. Button up shirts with sleeves that don't stretch generally tend to be something I can't buy because their too tight on my arms. My measurements are ridiculous. One of the major goals I have is to tone my arms so that shirts like these as well as jackets fit me better.
One thing I also want to get into is Yoga. I know me and Yoga? Yes... I want to use it as more of a stress reliever and relaxer that has toning benefits. So I found another great workout to try.
I also found another workout using water bottles! This seems so easy! I'm going to be doing these very often!
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| One of my trouble areas |
One thing I also want to get into is Yoga. I know me and Yoga? Yes... I want to use it as more of a stress reliever and relaxer that has toning benefits. So I found another great workout to try.
I also found another workout using water bottles! This seems so easy! I'm going to be doing these very often!
A New Day
Last night I seemed to struggle a little bit for a couple of reasons. I was in the mood for a treat, and exercise increases your appetite.
I went on that 2 mile bike ride yesterday evening, and my appetite had definitely increased by the evening. I ate a little bit of a larger dinner, and then treated myself with a snack of cheesecake pudding make with almond milk because I wanted something to eat. My carb intake was within range, until the pudding- each serving has 6 carbs in it. I ate more than my share... I should've divided it into individual containers, but I thought I could manage. Needless to say, I ate a little over 2 servings- nearly the whole package. I'm thinking I was around 30, or just a little over 30 carbs
Today is a new day, and there's no more pudding, so I am free and clear to avoid it!! lol But I am going to go on from here and get back on track with my 20 carbs as closely as possible, as well as getting in my exercise and handling my increased appetite with another approach- drinking water. I am definitely slacking on my goal of 64 oz a day. I'm maybe getting in 20-40 and a cup of coffee.
I've been sleeping with my air conditioner on at night because it has been brutally hot in my upstairs bedroom, and now I seem to have the start of a stiff neck, or a kink in it- something. I dont know.
I may venture out to the store this afternoon to get some stuff to try out this little recipe. They sound yummy enough!
Cream Cheese Mints Recipe
~ sweet, minty, and melt-in-your-mouth creamy!
Ingredients:
8 ounces soft cream cheese
6 tablespoons soft butter
3/4 teaspoon pure peppermint extract (NOT mint extract)
Add Splenda or any non calorie sweetener to taste--
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
3 drops red food coloring
Combine and push mint mixture into a pastry bag, icing syringe or squeeze bottle with a decorative tip. Create desired shapes for mints. Let set 1 hour.
I went on that 2 mile bike ride yesterday evening, and my appetite had definitely increased by the evening. I ate a little bit of a larger dinner, and then treated myself with a snack of cheesecake pudding make with almond milk because I wanted something to eat. My carb intake was within range, until the pudding- each serving has 6 carbs in it. I ate more than my share... I should've divided it into individual containers, but I thought I could manage. Needless to say, I ate a little over 2 servings- nearly the whole package. I'm thinking I was around 30, or just a little over 30 carbs
Today is a new day, and there's no more pudding, so I am free and clear to avoid it!! lol But I am going to go on from here and get back on track with my 20 carbs as closely as possible, as well as getting in my exercise and handling my increased appetite with another approach- drinking water. I am definitely slacking on my goal of 64 oz a day. I'm maybe getting in 20-40 and a cup of coffee.
I've been sleeping with my air conditioner on at night because it has been brutally hot in my upstairs bedroom, and now I seem to have the start of a stiff neck, or a kink in it- something. I dont know.
I may venture out to the store this afternoon to get some stuff to try out this little recipe. They sound yummy enough!
~ sweet, minty, and melt-in-your-mouth creamy!
Ingredients:
8 ounces soft cream cheese
6 tablespoons soft butter
3/4 teaspoon pure peppermint extract (NOT mint extract)
Add Splenda or any non calorie sweetener to taste--
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
3 drops red food coloring
Combine and push mint mixture into a pastry bag, icing syringe or squeeze bottle with a decorative tip. Create desired shapes for mints. Let set 1 hour.
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
2 mile Bike ride
I AM OUT OF SHAPE!!! Let's face it, unless you're a natural born gym-rat then working out sucks in the beginning... especially when you have extra pounds to lug around trying to do it.
I said to my youngest brother lets go for a bike ride, and as he was getting ready I started talking myself out of going.. but I said the heck with it because I knew I HAD TO. It was quick, but it was a bit of work for me. It's so disappointing to me because I could fly through that ride no problem last summer... Putting on an extra 40 pounds since then- was not ideal-- like I said-- side effects of the medication. :::sigh:::: it's such a set back in my battle.
It's a beautiful day, and the view during the ride made it so much more worth the time of actually doing it. I have to look on the brighter side of things. Exercising may not be fun, but I should be appreciating the sun on this beautiful day, and the scenery around me. I am not going to take the simple things for granted.
There is no quick fix. I have to start somewhere. It's only hard in the beginning, so the more I go the easier it will get.
I said to my youngest brother lets go for a bike ride, and as he was getting ready I started talking myself out of going.. but I said the heck with it because I knew I HAD TO. It was quick, but it was a bit of work for me. It's so disappointing to me because I could fly through that ride no problem last summer... Putting on an extra 40 pounds since then- was not ideal-- like I said-- side effects of the medication. :::sigh:::: it's such a set back in my battle.
There is no quick fix. I have to start somewhere. It's only hard in the beginning, so the more I go the easier it will get.
SOCD
I was looking at stuff that I kept from my weight loss last year and I've decided that my first true goal of weight loss is going to be what I was when I started doing low carb last summer (before I gave up). That means my first goal is to lose approximately 29 pounds. (NOT in my first induction phase.) Actually depending on how things go with weigh in July 9th, I may or may no stay on Induction another week, because surprisingly I'm actually pretty content with the way I'm eating and limiting my carbs. I've been checking regularly my ketosis level, and I've been in Moderate, which for me is very rare because I usually tend to stick around trace/small ketosis. I'm happy to be in moderate. In moderate, I feel like it's working- maybe it's just my mental tactic but I of course will take it, if it's going to keep my motivated.
Multi-vitamins, I really need to get back on track with taking a multi-vitamin daily. I used to be so good about taking one, but ever since I stopped pretty much all my medications, it's hard to get into the routine of taking pills again. I need to set up my daily pill box and pop those vitamins in there. Even eating properly, living in Buffalo, people in this area generally are vitamin deficient- especially of vitamin D, others as well. So needless to say- it's important I get back to taking this!
One thing I have to keep in mind is that even if I'm not seeing results in the number on the scale, I am going to find results elsewhere in measurements. I made the mistake of not taking recent measurements before I started Induction, but my weight didn't change too much from the ones I last took on May 24th. So I'm pretty sure I was pretty much the same there. To keep my mind at ease, I did take measurements this morning, and in comparison to May, I've lost a little bit. My waist actually is down 1 whole inch. When I look at it from this perspective, it's actually helpful in keeping me on track and off the scale. One thing I know is when you work so hard for it, and you don't see a number decrease on the scale like you feel it should be, then its a set up for failure, so measurements are one of the best ways to stay focused, and motivated.
I Can do this!!
Monday, July 1, 2013
July Goals
1. Drink 64oz water a day
2. Cardio 3 days/ week minimum
3. Weights 2 days/week minimum
4. Pass NCLEX Exam (mental health goal lol)
5. Stay between 1500-1800 calories per Atkins guidelines
6. Lose 10-15 pounds (including weight loss from starting week in June)
7. Celebrate a Non-Scale Victory
8. Explore the areas of Buffalo for athletic/exercise purposes
P.S. check out the new section MY STORY
Induction: Week 1
So, last week Tuesday, I decided that low-carb is how I am going to lose this weight. I am always struggling with my weight, but in all the things I have tried. LOW CARB is what honestly makes me feel better. Without the carbs, I feel like I have more energy without all the sugar weighing me down.
I am feeling positive and motivated! The first 3 days were a bit testy for me, but they always are. I pushed through, and the cravings for sugar has subsided... besides who can turn down a lifestyle of extra crispy chicken wings, and bacon!!
I'm coming to the end of my first week as Tomorrow starts my second week. I made myself promise not to peek on the scale until the first 2 weeks of the recommended induction are up. That means weigh in day is going to be July 9th. I'm excited to step on the scale because I know I am going to see results. But we all know i suffer from Scale OCD so this has been my biggest challenge thus far.
I've read in the book that you shouldn't exercise the first week, and just use the first week to get used to eating differently. SO... tomorrow starts common sense work out!!!
I am now off all medications I was previously taking, I have gotten used to and changed the way I am eating, and I am honestly feeling so much better. It's been a bit of a transition, but lord knows where there is a will there is a way, and I will find it one way or another.... so what if sometimes I do things the hard way....lol eventually I get where I need to be!
This week I am going to aim for my 2 mile walk around the neighborhood like I usually do. At least 3 times this week, but there's really no reason for me not to do it everyday just depends on how my ankle holds up.
I am feeling positive and motivated! The first 3 days were a bit testy for me, but they always are. I pushed through, and the cravings for sugar has subsided... besides who can turn down a lifestyle of extra crispy chicken wings, and bacon!!
I'm coming to the end of my first week as Tomorrow starts my second week. I made myself promise not to peek on the scale until the first 2 weeks of the recommended induction are up. That means weigh in day is going to be July 9th. I'm excited to step on the scale because I know I am going to see results. But we all know i suffer from Scale OCD so this has been my biggest challenge thus far.
I've read in the book that you shouldn't exercise the first week, and just use the first week to get used to eating differently. SO... tomorrow starts common sense work out!!!
I am now off all medications I was previously taking, I have gotten used to and changed the way I am eating, and I am honestly feeling so much better. It's been a bit of a transition, but lord knows where there is a will there is a way, and I will find it one way or another.... so what if sometimes I do things the hard way....lol eventually I get where I need to be!
This week I am going to aim for my 2 mile walk around the neighborhood like I usually do. At least 3 times this week, but there's really no reason for me not to do it everyday just depends on how my ankle holds up.
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