Looking back on the month of September.

September was not my best month. In fact, I did not lose a single pound. I gained almost 6 pounds. EASY TO DO, SO HARD TO WORK OFF.

So, let me start by saying... I have started my new job as a nurse, and so far so good. I am really loving it. I spend most days on my feet running around back and forth, all over. However.... one thing I did notice is that because I am now spending 8 hours on my feet, my feet are hurting ( I purchased a new pair of shoes this afternoon, so I am hoping this helps), but also my legs are swollen by the end of the day. I generally have a problem with my legs swelling due to the accident I was in a number of years ago. I have some metal plates and screws in my leg, and the swelling comes and goes. HOWEVER, i know I am doing all this activity that I rarely do because my past schedule consisted of long hours in classes.... but the downfall of work is that we literally have a catered nurses meeting, or a catered lunch because the drug reps come in trying to convince the office to use their brand of drug. GREAT, but I actually think this is a factor in my number on the scale this past friday when I have come to realize that overall, I have gained 5.6 pounds. And prior to this week, I have been stress eating worrying about starting this job, and finances, and other issues in my life- I'm a big time stress/emotional eater and this always always affects my life and the number on the scale.

So, the question is.... where do I go from here?

From now on I have to consciously think about what I am eating instead of just eating what's available at lunch!

I need to eat breakfast. One problem I have is that I have never been much of an eater first thing in the morning, I always get up then I eat about an hour or 2 after getting up, but I don't really have that option anymore. So I end up getting up, and not eating until lunch at 12pm and then I overeat because I am starving!

I also have not done any exercising, I really need to work on this. I think I am going to need to force myself to get up earlier than I normally do, and commit to doing a morning workout. I have some 20-30 minute workout DVDs that I can put to use, instead of getting out of work and saying I'm tired. This week coming up is actually going to be an easy week, because I have some more training that I have to do Tuesday-Friday... so I'll be able to get in some exercise this week....

As far as my "diet" goes... I just don't know what to do! I never know what I want to eat, but whatever I pick just hasn't been satisfying for me. So I snack on other things trying to get when I'm looking for, but nothing is working! I just want more of something to try to satisfy myself...and nothing helps, Ive been drinking water, and a lot of diet green tea, but i'm still missing something.

I'm faithfully taking all my vitamins. I've actually been very productive in that area. So I'm still not understanding what exactly my body feels like its wanting or needing that nothing seems to be satisfying me.

October will be a better month! Thats a promise to MYSELF!