Looking back on the month of September.

September was not my best month. In fact, I did not lose a single pound. I gained almost 6 pounds. EASY TO DO, SO HARD TO WORK OFF.

So, let me start by saying... I have started my new job as a nurse, and so far so good. I am really loving it. I spend most days on my feet running around back and forth, all over. However.... one thing I did notice is that because I am now spending 8 hours on my feet, my feet are hurting ( I purchased a new pair of shoes this afternoon, so I am hoping this helps), but also my legs are swollen by the end of the day. I generally have a problem with my legs swelling due to the accident I was in a number of years ago. I have some metal plates and screws in my leg, and the swelling comes and goes. HOWEVER, i know I am doing all this activity that I rarely do because my past schedule consisted of long hours in classes.... but the downfall of work is that we literally have a catered nurses meeting, or a catered lunch because the drug reps come in trying to convince the office to use their brand of drug. GREAT, but I actually think this is a factor in my number on the scale this past friday when I have come to realize that overall, I have gained 5.6 pounds. And prior to this week, I have been stress eating worrying about starting this job, and finances, and other issues in my life- I'm a big time stress/emotional eater and this always always affects my life and the number on the scale.

So, the question is.... where do I go from here?

From now on I have to consciously think about what I am eating instead of just eating what's available at lunch!

I need to eat breakfast. One problem I have is that I have never been much of an eater first thing in the morning, I always get up then I eat about an hour or 2 after getting up, but I don't really have that option anymore. So I end up getting up, and not eating until lunch at 12pm and then I overeat because I am starving!

I also have not done any exercising, I really need to work on this. I think I am going to need to force myself to get up earlier than I normally do, and commit to doing a morning workout. I have some 20-30 minute workout DVDs that I can put to use, instead of getting out of work and saying I'm tired. This week coming up is actually going to be an easy week, because I have some more training that I have to do Tuesday-Friday... so I'll be able to get in some exercise this week....

As far as my "diet" goes... I just don't know what to do! I never know what I want to eat, but whatever I pick just hasn't been satisfying for me. So I snack on other things trying to get when I'm looking for, but nothing is working! I just want more of something to try to satisfy myself...and nothing helps, Ive been drinking water, and a lot of diet green tea, but i'm still missing something.

I'm faithfully taking all my vitamins. I've actually been very productive in that area. So I'm still not understanding what exactly my body feels like its wanting or needing that nothing seems to be satisfying me.

October will be a better month! Thats a promise to MYSELF!

Friday Weigh In

Well, today was weigh in and YET AGAIN.... I am up 2 pounds.
It's my own fault, I've been eating out of stress and boredom, and haven't been exercising. So it's a minor set back...I got back on track today.... Today would've normally been my cheat day, but I've had 2 full cheat weeks!

I'm going to do a 7 day challenge until next fridays weigh in hoping to shed the pounds I gained!

Food will consist of:
A visalus shake for Breakfast and Lunch
A low carb dinner
(2) 100-150 calorie snacks.

Exercise:
Walking either around the neighborhood, or on my dreadful treadmill
Jillian Michaels ripped in 30, and a couple other workouts I got off Pinterest.
Definitely doing the Tone your arms in 7 days...

Where's the plan?

Nothing is going as planned. I am all over the place, and CANNOT seem to stick to any of my plans or goals! I'm struggling.... I know I got a lot on my mind, and the more I stress the more it affects me in how my appetite increases, and my lack of wanting to exercise.

Stress, and my rollercoaster of emotions always affects the way I live my life severely.

Tomorrow is a new day. I have a doctors appointment, and I need to get it together. I probably won't see much of a loss come weigh in on friday, but I definitely do not want to gain any more!

Gettin back in the swing of things...

Fall is definitely my most favorite season of all. There's something about the crisp cool air, and the leaves falling and changing on the trees. It makes me feel good!

TODAY, was my last festivity for quite sometime. It was the weekend of the local Lewiston Peach Festival, and needless to say I indulged in a corndog, a fresh squeezed lemonade with way too much sugar, an italian sausage with peppers and onions, and then a delicious peach shortcake.... sigh. It was delicious I can't deny it, buuuut now that all these festivals, carnivals and etc are over, there's really not much reason for many more cheat days in the days and months to come. I can't even say I look forward to the holiday meals at Thanksgiving and Christmas because it's always the same. Who knows, maybe it's just because I'm a sucker for JUNK... Oh well.

School is finally back in session, so my days of watching my youngest brother all day long are over, I can't say that I'm too sad about it either! lol I enjoy my alone time, way too much, and having him all summer long can be a pain in my butt, so I am looking forward to having some days to myself until I start this new FT job at the clinic. I'm waiting for my fingerprints and all that jazz to go through, so I should be hearing back this week for a start date. Can't wait to get to it!

I've been tossing around the decision to join a gym, or save my money and do workouts at home, and continue to walk like I occasionally do. The gym I've been considering joining is conveniently located right across the street from where my new job is located. I guess I just wonder how often I will actually go. My schedule is going to be 4 days a week, so I know I may go 4 days. It's not so much that I'm lazy-well maybe a part of me is, but it's more so in that I'm generally in a rush to get home or get someplace to help my mom out with my brother. I'm going to be 28 years old in December, and I'm kind of thinking that I need to put a stop to rushing for everyone else, and be selfish and put myself first.

So, since I was up at weigh in, this means I have to work double extra hard to work off all this festival food I've eaten. It honestly was a pretty bad week, and weekend in general. It was completely controlled by eating out, margaritas, and wine. All delicious of course, but not on the regimen of healthy living and eating.

First things first, I need to workout everyday, twice a day. I have nothing else to do since I'm awaiting clearance for this new job, and I have no children to watch since they will all be in school, so I have no reason not to. PUT AN END TO EXCUSES, and do it!

Without a doubt, I have to lose what I gained for weigh in, plus what I'm up from over the weekend, and hopefully I'll be able to shed an extra pound or 2 in the process.

As for eating, I haven't really been eating the greatest, so I may step back into my Visalus replacement shakes for breakfast and lunch. I'll have to work it out to rid my body of the junk...definitely kick the carbs and get back into fat burning mode, and I plan to keep track of the carbs and calories. Just for this week at least. And With as bad as I was this weekend, I'm thinking about skipping Fridays usual cheat day and going healthy straight through. I can do this!

Friday Weigh In

Well, it's my weigh in day, and of course.... without a plan, without exercise, and without any effort at all I am up 1.6 pounds this week. This is just a little bit of a set back for me and my plan to get GHOE ready. But it's a new week, and I am starting fresh. I'm aiming fro a good loss this week! Back on track I must go!!!

Ripped in 30

I picked this DVD up at Target a few months ago.. I decided I was finally going to open it today and preview it.

Now that I've previewed it, I am going to be starting WEEK 1's exercises this week. She says to exercise 5-6 days a week, but I'm going for all 7. I need to get on track, and the beginners workout for week 1 is very doable. I was worried it being Jillian that she'd go as far as killing me the first day... but maybe not, at least not during the first week..lol. I can do this. It reminds me of the class I went to with my friend Jenell a little while back, and I really enjoyed that class, so I think this is going to be good for me. I just have to do it.

I already started the day off nooot my best. but I still have the rest of the day to recover. I was just starving after I got home from my physical and drug testing... So on the way home I ordered a Venti Nonfat Chai Tea Latte from starbucks AT LEAST it was nonfat...

GETTING GHOE 2013 READY

SO... I've decided that I will be returning to NC for my College Homecoming as an Alumni.... Graduating College I was about 40 pounds lighter, just 3 short years ago.... SOOOOO with that being said.... the pressure is ON to get in tip top shape the next 59 days. (Well as much tip top shape as I can get in 59 days)

I'm getting STRICT on myself!!!

1. COUNT CALORIES.... I'm going to count my calories everything possible and maintain around 1300-everyone tells me its tedious but it works, however it hasn't worked for me in the past, but maybe now I can give it a whirl for the week just to see where I'm at.

2 NO SODA: WATER WATER WATER!!!

3. SWEAT MY ASS OFF: EXERCISE... workout, workout, workout!!!! NO EXCUSES

If I go hard, I know I'll be able to drop 15 pounds for this.... I have to do it! NO exceptions.... it must be done! Once I drop 8 pounds and hit my first *mini* goal that I originally planned, I'll be good to go, no deviation really, just motivation! I need to get focused, stay focused, eat clean, get smart, and do this!

Friday's Weigh In/August Stats/September Goals

Friday Weigh In:
I was only down 0.2 ounces, as I had imagined I would be. I think I spent most of the week working off my binging habits rather than working on new weight loss, but that's ok. I would rather work and maintain, and lose a couple ounces instead of gain! I'm getting so close to the first 25 pounds lost!!!

I'm celebrating that I have LOST my first 5% of weight. Hopefully this month I will be celebrating 10% lost. I am looking forward to what this month has in store for me. New beginnings, and new opportunities await!


AUGUST STATS:

Weight Lost: 4.8 pounds
Total Inches Lost: 2.75 
Total Pounds Lost since starting: 14.8
Total Loss since Heaviest: 18.4

I reached the mini goal weight that I wanted to be. (It's my weight from back in February- I'm actually 1.2 pounds below that mini goal so I'm happy with that.) I'm working on this the best that I can. I always have so much going on it's crazy! One thing I need to do is stop making excuses and exercise.

SEPTEMBER GOALS:

1. For a NON-SCALE GOAL: I would like to be able to wear my rings comfortably again. I can get them on, but their a bit tight, and it actually hurts somewhat. So by the end of the month, I'd like to be able to weat them again.

2. Lose 10 Pounds- This will bring me to my 25 pound goal when I will start posting my actual # weight instead of amount lost.

3. 600 mins of exercise for the month