Looking for my Motivation, and setting GOALS

It's already begun! I'm already stressing myself out about the start of next semester and I am trying to relax and not overwhelm myself. When I stress I eat, and my appetite has been slightly increased for that reason. I've already started using some of my flex points, but I was told "that's what they're there for!" and that I shouldn't be feeling guilty for using them because the points plus system is designed to use them if you need them. I guess that's part of my problem is because I feel like I shouldn't use them so that I could "lose weight faster." I'm a work in progress- so I have to become comfortable with everything, mostly eating when I'm hungry and not when I'm bored...or even stressed really.

The eating isn't really that much of a problem. I have no craving for junk food. In fact, since this is into my second week of eating this way, I am enjoying the fresh veggies and fruits. I'm getting used to eating healthier.

However, this lack of motivation I'm having with wanting to exercise is terrible! I have no ambition or energy to do it. I am really struggling to get up and go. Then, I think to myself- had I exercised when I was thinking about it, I'd be done already and feeling good about doing it... It's a mind battle for me when it comes to that.

Emotionally I am feeling much better, less depressed, but still tired all the time. I honestly think I burned myself out so much in the years prior that I'm still recovering. But who really knows, it could just be all in my head!

SO, on a positive note. I've set a goal for myself that every week or 2 I am going to find a new recipe and make it. My Sausage Kale soup was so amazing that it's sparked up my cooking new and healthy recipes interest.

With that being said... These are my GOALS

1. Eat healthier and track all I eat in my WW tracker.
2. Exercise at least 20 minutes a day. Anything- just force myself to get up and do it.
3. Drink Water. I am terrible with this- I have to drink 64oz of water!!!
4. Every week or 2, find a new recipe to make.

Tomorrow I am going to post current pictures of myself, under my photo tab, because I believe it needs to be done. I need to see it so that I can use it as motivation of what I don't want to continue on with.

I am currently at the heaviest I have ever been in my life. None of my clothes fit at all. I need to get moving with this. I need to find the inner strength and self motivation to improve. Tomorrow is a new day.