Chronic OCD

I have Chronic Issues when it comes to using a scale and dieting. I'm obsessed! In my obsession of checking I decided to weigh myself and do my measurements since I had the time this Sunday afternoon. I weighed in at 216.0 and it's been about 2 years since I've seen that number so I am thrilled to death! I remember in the Summer of 2012, I had gone to the doctors office and their scale was at 216, and I was happy because that was about the lowest I had been since I moved back to NY. Then I blew up to my highest weight of 254.2 last April. That was the major indication that I needed to stop my medication, and I honestly feel even better not being on it.

I must say I am quite pleased with my attitude when it comes to me and my body, I know I'm really putting in the effort to control my portions and eat better. One thing I always fail at is exercise. I am just not the athletic girl I dreamed of being... that's something I struggle with but work on.

On another note, my measurements from just the techniques I've been doing, are down 7.25 inches and I am thrilled to say the least with these new numbers because I AM GETTING THERE! Last time I took my measurements were back in September, so I know that this has been a long slow 7 months of progress in that department, but I'm making it happen, and I'm looking good again, and feeling good which is most important. However, when I look at my changing body I tell myself... imagine how much greater it would look with exercise to tone! A MUST WORK ON!!

Thirty Seven Pounds Down

Today I realized that I am down to 217.2 pounds. I've lost a total of 37 pounds since June 2013. Yes, it's taken me 9 months to get this far... but looking back at my overall goal of wanting to lose 70 pounds it came to my attention that at 37 pounds gone, I am just a tiny over my halfway mark!!! I'm HALFWAY THERE. My goal was to be at 185..... and it's really brought into perspective that if I lose the 20 pounds by June that I am trying to lose i'll be so close to my goal! I can't believe I'm getting there....finally! It feels good.

I went back to low carb living!
I started on Tuesday so, I'm only 5 days in, but I'm feeling pretty good, after only 5 days people have said they could see where I've lost some weight. I was in disbelief. I don't see it, but I noticed that while I was getting dressed to go out for dinner this evening with my family- My clothes did fit a little better. One thing I regret not doing was taking my measurements when I started. I know Low carb is one of those things you always want to go by measurements because you generally tend to lose more there, than when you go by the number on the scale. Either way, I'm very pleased with my progress.

Health, Wealth, and Happiness to you!

Back at it!

........As I always am!

Now that I am down to 218.8, my goal is to lose another 20 pounds by the time June rolls around. That's pretty much when it will be time to pull out the summer clothes, and see what still fits. Hopefully, I'll be down far enough to fit in the summer clothes I wore approximately 3 years ago. I'd be satisfied and wouldn't even need to go out and buy new clothes because I have some really great ones in a storage tote.

My dilemma.... do I count calories or do I count my carbs? I honestly feel like I should tough it out for another 2 week Induction and jump start myself back into weight loss. Generally, Induction for me is a sure 7 pound loss. I know a lot of it is water weight, but I was pinteresting and found some pretty good looking low carb friendly meals. Low carb is so convenient too. Least amount of ingredients to cook with.... lol Meat and Veggies! Who could go wrong with that. My real down fall is my is my sweet tooth, but I've gotten over it before.... I can do it again.

To date I've lost 35.4, so me real focus right now is hitting that 40 pounds lost mark.
I always do better when I blog about everything....hahaha, so somehow I will have to find a way to blog about what I'm doing and my weight loss. Since I started my job 6 months ago, I really lost track with my weightloss. I carry around a lap top all day so by the time I get home from work, I don't even want to look at mine!

March is already almost over, so If I want to lose 20 pounds theres no time like to present to get back on track!

Health Wealth and Happiness to you all!

February First!

I brought in the month with GREAT news!

I decided to weigh in this morning, since I missed my usual Friday weigh in and I weighed in at 223.4!! YAY!!! I am officially down 30.8 pounds.

It's been a lot of work and I've had tons of set backs, but I'm not going to let that stand in the way of getting back to what I used to be! My weight still fluctuates crazy, but I'm happy with being down. It's a big improvement from where I was 8 months ago when I started.

Overall, things are going well. I just wish I had more time to myself to BLOG about things. I still write in my home journal of what I'm doing and how weight loss goes, I still track here and there on my fitness pal, but not as much as I would like to.

Progress pictures to come soon!

An Overview of 2013!

As we all know, we start off the New Year with all these get fit, get skinny, lose weight, and be healthy resolutions, as did I January of 2013 and it was a bit of a struggle. I wasn't as focused as I had wished I had been, but 6 months into the year around June 2013 I made my weight a priority to focus on!

I am not where I want to be, I am not done, but I've made progress! I set a goal to at least lose 25 pounds by the time the New Year hit, and I actually reached my goal!!! I am down 27.8 pounds total and as promised months ago when I hit 25 pounds lost, I would start to post my actual weight instead of pounds lost. I guess losing 25 pounds was it for me me! I knew if I lost these 25 pounds that I would be back at the weight I was when I met TRE- that's his name- I'll no longer refer to him as the ex, or the boyfriend, or the guy who I have no idea where things are going with. In that department, in "LOVE", I just sort of wing it because I'm not really good at it, but that's a topic for another day.

I'm no longer ashamed. I am currently 226.4 pounds and working on continuing to lower this number. I actually weighed 228 pounds when I met Tre 3 years ago. I'm not going to sit here and continue to make excuses for myself. I gained weight because I LET MYSELF! I'm not going to blame my anxiety, depression, or stress. I let myself go. Maybe those things aided in the process, but I am the one that is in control of my own life and what goes in my mouth knowing the amount of calories it has- it's no ones fault but my own. I made the choice to take Zoloft for a year because I thought that was what was best at the time, and of course SSRI drugs have the side effects to gain a significant amount of weight- I knew this, and aided in my lack of caring. But ultimately the decision was mine to become what I was.  I no longer want to be this overweight, unhealthy person.

I have an elliptical now, and thrilled because I'll be using it everyday! If I could lose another 25 pounds in the next six months I would be pretty happy and that's another goal of mine. Baby steps of course, the healthier I lose the weight, the better off I will be. I'm only human, I enjoy eating, now I just have to find a way to enjoy working out. The rest has yet to come but from now on I will do my best to at least track my progress and life weekly since I don't really blog daily anymore, and lately in the last 3 or 4 months it's been pretty sparingly.

Hope you all have been doing wonderful and continuing to LOSE!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!