Weigh In

Well, if nothing else, I'm down 1.2 pounds. Its better than I thought considering the weekend I had.

I don't know how today is going to go. Im in school until 4:00 and then I have clinicals from 5p-11p. I probably won't make it to the gym, I have to go home after clinicals and clean out the bathroom, since the remodeler is coming to start working.

The mental burden I had, has taken its toll on me. Though it seems as if the storm is finally over, this could just be the calm before the storm. Who can ever really tell with a person as unstable as that. 

I don't have much of an appetite. I sipped through a small cup of coffee, not even finishing it because I let it get cold. I haven't eaten.  I look like I've been crying. I haven't moved from this computer for over 2 hours. I didn't even get done the work I was supposed to. Nor did I study for my midterm I have at 2:30. I sat here, crying...yes crying in the middle of the library...with my mind in a thousand other places than sitting here.

I will make it through. Tomorrow will be a better day than this.

I call this a journey, but its more than just a journey to get thin... its a journey to become healthy, mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually. Finding a better way to be who I am.