motivate me

Exercise with a little noticed progression!

Well, today I haven't had much of an appetite, and I really cannot complain, the less calories I consume the better off I am!

I did some laundry today, so I've been up and down the basement times probably 20 times. I'm counting it as exercise lol. I also went for a 2.1 mile walk around the neighborhood like I generally do. I feel better having done it. I just have to make it a habit.

WEEKLY GOAL:

WALK 2.1 Miles EVERYDAY(until weigh in Friday)

I was looking at myself in the mirror today, and I was trying to notice if I could see where the 12.2 pounds were lost, and I do see it a little bit. So I'm happy, it makes me want to keep going and to be better!

12.2 pounds lost.

 

Actually, Since the picture on the left, I have lost 16.2 pounds but since I started my Journey for the millionth time on June 25th, I am only down 12.2 pounds. It's been a fluctuating battle, but I have to keep going no matter the gain or loss! My weight is such a roller coaster, but I feel like I can see a bit of a difference in my stomach area, not much but enough.

I've worked out a method to my madness. HAHA! I've decided that until further notice or plans, my cheat days will be after I weigh in on Friday mornings. If I solely have 1 cheat day to eat 1 cheat meal a week and I do it the day of my weigh in, that literally gives me the entire week to work it off, and I can live with that! It prevents me from being sooo discouraged by the results of my bad habits!

At this point I'm not so sure I will reach my goal of losing 10 pounds this month, if so that means I need to lose 8 more pounds, I'm hoping for about 5 more though. But that means I am really going to have to work for it!

I've also started taking vitamins, and it's really helping with my energy!
Women's One A Day Energy Multi-vitamin
B Complex
Biotin (hair skin and nail growth a must have!)
Folic Acid (eventually I'd like to have children, being a nurse and knowing the importance I want to make sure its abundant in my system)

Hope you all are having a wonderful weekend!

Last day of the month...

Today is my brothers 25th birthday. I don't know where time has gone. I feel so old saying my brothers are 25 and 11- people generally tend to think the 11 year old is mine. Buuuuuuuuuut he's not. Anyhoo- I'm trying to avoid cake and junk. lol

Today I'm taking my measurements to see where I am starting at on this 1 month journey of fitness/exercise. I'm not going to post them until the end of the month when I have my comparison results. So for now, I'll write them down and keep them in a spot for safe keeping and later posting.

I don't care if I don't feel the greatest... I AM going to start my c25k app today. I think the first day is only a 32 minute workout and consists of mostly walking, so I am going to get up and get myself going with this app. I think I read all the reviews posted for it, and everyone loved it, and said that once you get past the initial stages you get really involved in the story line, and feel guilty if you skip a workout and don't keep up with the story, so I am very interested in seeing how true this is for me.

I read all the things about statistics and how long it will take to make and break a habit, and it looks as though the happy medium is somewhere around 21 days. So THREE weeks. It seems like such a long time, but in actuality those 3 weeks will fly by like they never even came. So, that was a major reason why I am forcing myself to commit to the 30 days because every 4 days is a rest day according to these calendars. I want to make changes in my lifestyle and I WANT to see RESULTS.... I just have to get together the energy and will power. I am already saying I have to and NEED to do this, my mind is there, but I just need to get over other things causing my problems in my life and FORCE myself to get through. It's always the hardest in the beginning. And this 10 pound loss from July is some motivation, but not enough on its own. SO OFF I GO.... to do what I need to do. :)

July Monthly Progress

Today was my last weigh in for this month, and I LOST exactly 10 pounds (I had a .4 ounce gain, and I know it's from my period, so it's no big deal to me).

July has been my best month yet!!

Tomorrow I am taking my measurements since it's the last day in the month, and the the day after that is August 1st! So my 30 day challenge will begin very shortly. I printed off my 30 day calendars and hung them on the back of my bedroom door so that I always look at them as a reminder that things need to get done! 

Of course I would like to see another 10 pound loss for the month of August, but this month like I said before, I am really focusing more on the numbers when it comes to the exercise. I have to make exercise a part of my life. I don't have a choice. It has to be done. It's a necessity for me if I am ever going to get this weight off. The only problem I face with exercising, is it increasing my metabolism and my want to eat because of an increased appetite. I'm not so much going to be counting calories. I am just going to use common sense, and make better choices instead of sitting down for Pizza and wings like the family ordered last night, I'll make myself a salad and grill some chicken or something. It has to be something SENSIBLE.

One goal I also have for the month is that if it lasts for longer than a week, I probably shouldn't eat it. I'm going to go with fresh veggies, and fruits and fill up on those instead of filling up on boxed pastas and pre-packaged frozen dinners which generally have tons of preservatives and tons of sodium in them.

I also need to drink more water. Plain ol' water. I drink a lot, but here lately I've been drinking regular ginger ale like crazy, but I think it's because it settles my stomach when I don't feel well.

Im so happy about my 10 pound loss! It's time to keep this up!

Motivation!!!

A motivating factor....

One of the biggest things that disgusts me, are all those bright lights in a fitting room, that just let you SEE EVERY FLAW ON YOUR BODY.... ugh, as if it isn't already hard enough trying on clothes, you have those bright lights, and extra big mirrors..... ::Sigh::: it is what it is-- for now that it.

I decided that since I SO badly dislike the way I look with or without clothing on, that I would take a photo or two in a bra and some panties, and keep them handy so that when I feel like I'm going off the deep end into chocolate heaven, I can sneak a peak at those photos, and STOP right in my tracks. My biggest craving is chocolate.... it kills me every time. There's no stop or end for me when it comes to chocolate.

I laugh because when I worked at Applebee's some time ago- I swear I ate a Triple Chocolate Meltdown EVERY SINGLE DAY I WORKED.... Needless to say, back then I could afford to eat those because I was about 60 pounds lighter. Calories weren't so much an issue back then. But then one day, I decided to look up the calorie content of a triple chocolate meltdown, and if my memory serves me correctly- it was about 1500 calories.................................. haven't had one in forever because of it!

EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE..... that's what I'm working on.
I downloaded the craziest App on my phone. it was $1.99, but I thought hey lets check it out, it might be fun. It's called Zombies, Run! Its a c25k app that has a whole story line, it's actually pretty cool, you put your ear buds in, and it gives you the story, and walks you through the vacant town, and little community of humans non zombie (I usually Imagine The Walking dead) but then it goes into tell you when to jog, and when to run from the zombies... it's the craziest thing... but I think it may work for me to get me to run a 5K. I can't even walk half the time, let alone run, so it's going to be a work in progress, but supposedly if you follow through and do it as it's instructed you'll be able to run a 5k in about 6 weeks. We'll see. I haven't started it yet, I just downloaded it today, and went through the program to see what it was about. I really think I am going to enjoy it. The first week is alot of walking around and getting used to the story line. So wish me luck. If I can get through it, then my plan is to sign up for the dirty girl mud run in September. :)

I AM GOING TO DO THIS!!

Weigh In Day, :)

Well, I am happy to say that even though this journey is the biggest battle and struggle of my life, I am down 4.2 pounds from last weigh in. For me, I'm ecstatic, because its the most I've lost in quite some time. My goal is too keep up with these 10 pound increments. These goals are small, but have the ability to get me where I want to be for myself, and where I need to be for my health.

One thing I slack on is exercise, and as I said before... Maybe walking just isn't cutting it. Maybe I need a more invigorating- is that the right word? Workout to help me meet my goals. That is still something I need to work on.

I've cut down my portion sizes to about half of what I was eating, and I eat small things about every 4 hours. It seems to help me when it comes to waiting hours to eat and feeling famished. That's when I over eat. I'm still horrible at my water intake. I read all these blogs where ppl, are drinking over 100 ounces of water plus some because new weight loss research tells everyone to drink half your body weight in clear plain ol water everyday. I don't know that I'm necessarily in agreence with that because it makes the kidneys work so much harder.

Last spring I bought the cutest jeans. They were on sale when I bought them, so I didn't mind purchasing them to sit in my closet and be my silent motivator. I'm hoping that I can fit them by the time Fall settles in. Their not exactly my ultimate goal jeans, but maybe they are. I don't really know how much weight I need to lose to fit into these jeans. I've even gone as far as cleaning out my old clothes from the different stages of my weight, I have some size 8s, and I have some 10s and 12s. I think I've looked good at all stages, but right now I'm leaning toward losing enough weight to comfortably fit back into my size 12s and that's what these jeans are, a 12. i got rid of a ton of clothes that I had. It was hard to do. I think I was just emotionally attached to the person I was when I wore these clothes, compared to whether I'd ever truly where them again. A lot of it, is from college and some of my biggest party days in Greensboro....and well lord knows I couldn't be seen in the same outfit more than once, and their not everyday clothes either, so they needed to go :)

Crazily enough, even though the number on the scale had been up from the week prior, my measurements had been down. I think that's a motivator too because the scale is not always my friend. He's generally very mean. I know this is going to be a rough road, and probably even a real slow process for me, but now that the numbers are going down, I feel more motivated to keep on track. I need to stay focused on the bigger picture and take it month my month, or day by day if I have to.

1 more weigh in for July, then I'm gonna see another 10 pound loss for August! I can do it!