Well, I am happy to say that even though this journey is the biggest battle and struggle of my life, I am down 4.2 pounds from last weigh in. For me, I'm ecstatic, because its the most I've lost in quite some time. My goal is too keep up with these 10 pound increments. These goals are small, but have the ability to get me where I want to be for myself, and where I need to be for my health.
One thing I slack on is exercise, and as I said before... Maybe walking just isn't cutting it. Maybe I need a more invigorating- is that the right word? Workout to help me meet my goals. That is still something I need to work on.
I've cut down my portion sizes to about half of what I was eating, and I eat small things about every 4 hours. It seems to help me when it comes to waiting hours to eat and feeling famished. That's when I over eat. I'm still horrible at my water intake. I read all these blogs where ppl, are drinking over 100 ounces of water plus some because new weight loss research tells everyone to drink half your body weight in clear plain ol water everyday. I don't know that I'm necessarily in agreence with that because it makes the kidneys work so much harder.
Last spring I bought the cutest jeans. They were on sale when I bought them, so I didn't mind purchasing them to sit in my closet and be my silent motivator. I'm hoping that I can fit them by the time Fall settles in. Their not exactly my ultimate goal jeans, but maybe they are. I don't really know how much weight I need to lose to fit into these jeans. I've even gone as far as cleaning out my old clothes from the different stages of my weight, I have some size 8s, and I have some 10s and 12s. I think I've looked good at all stages, but right now I'm leaning toward losing enough weight to comfortably fit back into my size 12s and that's what these jeans are, a 12. i got rid of a ton of clothes that I had. It was hard to do. I think I was just emotionally attached to the person I was when I wore these clothes, compared to whether I'd ever truly where them again. A lot of it, is from college and some of my biggest party days in Greensboro....and well lord knows I couldn't be seen in the same outfit more than once, and their not everyday clothes either, so they needed to go :)
Crazily enough, even though the number on the scale had been up from the week prior, my measurements had been down. I think that's a motivator too because the scale is not always my friend. He's generally very mean. I know this is going to be a rough road, and probably even a real slow process for me, but now that the numbers are going down, I feel more motivated to keep on track. I need to stay focused on the bigger picture and take it month my month, or day by day if I have to.
1 more weigh in for July, then I'm gonna see another 10 pound loss for August! I can do it!
