UPDATE

So my measurements.... I NEVER WANT TO SEE NUMBERS LIKE THESE AGAIN!!!!!

I know I'm still at the top end of my highest weight ever, but I'm still in a mindset that my body can handle what it used to when I was 50 pounds lighter, and it just cannot. I am much slower paced than I was before, and my ankles and knees just dont handle the weight so well when jogging. I definitely am no where near being able to run because the strain on my joints is a bit much. I know it's all this extra weight. But I pushed and did what I could.

I completed the first mission on the Zombie run, and I'm not gonna lie, they say to run throughout the whole thing, but I just can't I walked most of it, and jogged as I could. My body is in no shape to do any running, but I pushed through it and completed my first mission. I get a little confused sometimes though because the app kinda goes silent for periods of time, and from what I'm getting is I'm supposed to be running during those 10 minute silences, but I just can't I tried to do intervals of jogging for as much as i could, then walking to catch my breath, then going back to jogging. I spent more time walking though because my body is waaaay out of shape.

I just keep telling myself today was only the first day, it's going to get easier, but at least I got up and finished it!

The mission itself was about 32 mins. I did it around my neighborhood which is a 2.1 mile walk so in all it took me about 45 mins to complete.

I CANNOT GIVE UP.

Last day of the month...

Today is my brothers 25th birthday. I don't know where time has gone. I feel so old saying my brothers are 25 and 11- people generally tend to think the 11 year old is mine. Buuuuuuuuuut he's not. Anyhoo- I'm trying to avoid cake and junk. lol

Today I'm taking my measurements to see where I am starting at on this 1 month journey of fitness/exercise. I'm not going to post them until the end of the month when I have my comparison results. So for now, I'll write them down and keep them in a spot for safe keeping and later posting.

I don't care if I don't feel the greatest... I AM going to start my c25k app today. I think the first day is only a 32 minute workout and consists of mostly walking, so I am going to get up and get myself going with this app. I think I read all the reviews posted for it, and everyone loved it, and said that once you get past the initial stages you get really involved in the story line, and feel guilty if you skip a workout and don't keep up with the story, so I am very interested in seeing how true this is for me.

I read all the things about statistics and how long it will take to make and break a habit, and it looks as though the happy medium is somewhere around 21 days. So THREE weeks. It seems like such a long time, but in actuality those 3 weeks will fly by like they never even came. So, that was a major reason why I am forcing myself to commit to the 30 days because every 4 days is a rest day according to these calendars. I want to make changes in my lifestyle and I WANT to see RESULTS.... I just have to get together the energy and will power. I am already saying I have to and NEED to do this, my mind is there, but I just need to get over other things causing my problems in my life and FORCE myself to get through. It's always the hardest in the beginning. And this 10 pound loss from July is some motivation, but not enough on its own. SO OFF I GO.... to do what I need to do. :)

August 30 Day Challenge....

I've decided to make a 30 day Challenge for myself. I'm going to be using 3 of the 30 day workout schedule calendars to follow from August 1st to August 30th. I have to commit to these next 30 days to MAKE THIS A HABIT!!!!

SQUATS

ARMS

ABS

I plan to take my latest measurements August 1st, so that after 30 days of these sem-intense toning exercises I will hopefully see some results. I'm doing this because I want to see a difference in my measurements. I'm not going to focus so much on the number on the scale this month. I more so want to see what exercise is going to do for my body.

I'll also be doing cardio which will range from 30-60 minutes a day.
These activities will probably consist of the 2 mile walk around my neighborhood, as well as Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred, and I am really going to try to commit to the 6 week Zombies Run C25K app.

I'm pretty confident in saying that I have maintained my 10 pound loss for the month of July, However, after my 10 day prescription of Provera to force my period, I am definitely feeling the effects of having it! I finally got it, after going without it for over 2 months. I'm hoping that since this medication caused it, that it will now regulate my body back to normal, even though this isn't typical of the "norm" for me. I know my weight has caused many changes in me, so I'm a work in progress trying to get HEALTHY again.

August is going to be my month! I'm going to form the habit of EXERCISING, and I am going to change my body.

Motivation!!!

A motivating factor....

One of the biggest things that disgusts me, are all those bright lights in a fitting room, that just let you SEE EVERY FLAW ON YOUR BODY.... ugh, as if it isn't already hard enough trying on clothes, you have those bright lights, and extra big mirrors..... ::Sigh::: it is what it is-- for now that it.

I decided that since I SO badly dislike the way I look with or without clothing on, that I would take a photo or two in a bra and some panties, and keep them handy so that when I feel like I'm going off the deep end into chocolate heaven, I can sneak a peak at those photos, and STOP right in my tracks. My biggest craving is chocolate.... it kills me every time. There's no stop or end for me when it comes to chocolate.

I laugh because when I worked at Applebee's some time ago- I swear I ate a Triple Chocolate Meltdown EVERY SINGLE DAY I WORKED.... Needless to say, back then I could afford to eat those because I was about 60 pounds lighter. Calories weren't so much an issue back then. But then one day, I decided to look up the calorie content of a triple chocolate meltdown, and if my memory serves me correctly- it was about 1500 calories.................................. haven't had one in forever because of it!

EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE..... that's what I'm working on.
I downloaded the craziest App on my phone. it was $1.99, but I thought hey lets check it out, it might be fun. It's called Zombies, Run! Its a c25k app that has a whole story line, it's actually pretty cool, you put your ear buds in, and it gives you the story, and walks you through the vacant town, and little community of humans non zombie (I usually Imagine The Walking dead) but then it goes into tell you when to jog, and when to run from the zombies... it's the craziest thing... but I think it may work for me to get me to run a 5K. I can't even walk half the time, let alone run, so it's going to be a work in progress, but supposedly if you follow through and do it as it's instructed you'll be able to run a 5k in about 6 weeks. We'll see. I haven't started it yet, I just downloaded it today, and went through the program to see what it was about. I really think I am going to enjoy it. The first week is alot of walking around and getting used to the story line. So wish me luck. If I can get through it, then my plan is to sign up for the dirty girl mud run in September. :)

I AM GOING TO DO THIS!!