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This week really hasn't been going the greatest for me. I don't know what it is. I've sort of been binge eating, but not really bad, My appetite has been increased a bit, but I think it's more or less my level of stress and anxiety I experience. My mother eats horribly, she literally eats candy all day long breakfast lunch and dinner, and I am trying to be healthy and it doesn't help that all this candy and stuff is everywhere to be found in this house.

I haven't really been exercising, I'm not so sure what's up with that.

I haven't been feeling the greatest either, and it's not just the way I've been eating. I'm feeling different, like I may need to schedule a visit with a doctor to be looked at. I know a lot of my problem is stress, and anxiety, but I'm feeling down like i need to go back on my antidepressants and thats not what I want to do. I want to find a way to be content without the medicine.

I know everything takes time, and I am dealing with the final end to an on going on and off relationship, but I think the way I've been living my life in general has really taken it's toll on my emotionally and physically.

It's Tuesday, SO tomorrow, I'm going to get right back on track and hopefully maintain my loss, and not see a gain come weigh in on Friday. I don't mind maintaining, but I have to break the bad habits and emotional binging in order to continue to lose. The rest of the week, I am definitely going to have to do some exercising.

motivate me

WEIGH IN FRIDAY :)

Not today ladies and gentlemen!! The scale is tipping in my favor! Down another 2.4 pounds!!!

I've been sitting here thinking about how I only post my loss in pounds and never my actual weight. SO I'm thinking that when I hit my 25 pound mark of pounds lost, I will start to post my actual weight instead of the pounds lost or gained. In a way I believe the embarrassment of the number will hold me more accountable to putting in the effort to make it go down!

One more week left in the month, means one more weigh in for me.... I know I'm not going to be down 10 pounds... but any loss is better than no loss at all. I'm putting in the effort with doing my best to eat less, and healthier, I'm working on exercise- but I'm going to get it where i need to be.

Tomorrow

Well, tomorrow is fast approaching, and It's WEIGH IN DAY!...

Confessions:

1. I didn't eat the best, I had my cheat day on Friday, then I went on another binge a couple days later just eating whatever.

2. I didn't walk everyday. I only walked 3 days, but 3 days is more than I have been doing in the past. I need to keep adding to it.

So now that I got that out of the way....

I am hoping for a loss, but I don't know how much weight I've actually lost. I don't even care, just as long as it is not a gain. I can't get results over night, and I am a huge work in progress!

It's been quite an emotional week with my personal life, but I'm ok. It's going to get better, I just have to keep my eye on the prize. Everything comes to an end, no matter how good or bad the situation be. It is what it is, and if it was meant to be then it would still be, and it's not. I'm working on myself and worrying about myself more than anything because I've put everyone before me for far too long.

My anxiety has been crazy, but I made the decision to go off of all those medications and I am just trying to handle everything the best that I can.

We're vastly approaching the last week of August, and I am making some choices to do some pre-fall cleaning. I'm packing up the things I don't want and no longer need. I'm also packing away the memories that make me have emotions that I need to tuck away now. Love is such a tricky thing. But I'm going to be OK.

SO... lets see what happens tomorrow! Tomorrow is a NEW day!

Exercise with a little noticed progression!

Well, today I haven't had much of an appetite, and I really cannot complain, the less calories I consume the better off I am!

I did some laundry today, so I've been up and down the basement times probably 20 times. I'm counting it as exercise lol. I also went for a 2.1 mile walk around the neighborhood like I generally do. I feel better having done it. I just have to make it a habit.

WEEKLY GOAL:

WALK 2.1 Miles EVERYDAY(until weigh in Friday)

I was looking at myself in the mirror today, and I was trying to notice if I could see where the 12.2 pounds were lost, and I do see it a little bit. So I'm happy, it makes me want to keep going and to be better!

12.2 pounds lost.

 

Actually, Since the picture on the left, I have lost 16.2 pounds but since I started my Journey for the millionth time on June 25th, I am only down 12.2 pounds. It's been a fluctuating battle, but I have to keep going no matter the gain or loss! My weight is such a roller coaster, but I feel like I can see a bit of a difference in my stomach area, not much but enough.

I've worked out a method to my madness. HAHA! I've decided that until further notice or plans, my cheat days will be after I weigh in on Friday mornings. If I solely have 1 cheat day to eat 1 cheat meal a week and I do it the day of my weigh in, that literally gives me the entire week to work it off, and I can live with that! It prevents me from being sooo discouraged by the results of my bad habits!

At this point I'm not so sure I will reach my goal of losing 10 pounds this month, if so that means I need to lose 8 more pounds, I'm hoping for about 5 more though. But that means I am really going to have to work for it!

I've also started taking vitamins, and it's really helping with my energy!
Women's One A Day Energy Multi-vitamin
B Complex
Biotin (hair skin and nail growth a must have!)
Folic Acid (eventually I'd like to have children, being a nurse and knowing the importance I want to make sure its abundant in my system)

Hope you all are having a wonderful weekend!

Friday Weigh In!!

I weighed in this morning and I am happy to say I am down 3 pounds this week! For a total of 12.2 pounds! I am so freaking happy! I weighed what I weigh today back in February when I had started weight watchers and gotten sick with the flu and couldn't keep anything down. It's definitely been hard this week, and I cheated here n there, but I still feel good knowing I'm down 3 pounds! I just need to keep this up.

I only worked out 2 days this week. That's still something I am trying to enforce but I struggle with wanting to do it! 2 days is better than no days!

I hope everyone has a fantabulous Friday!

The soup diet: FRUIT DAY

7 days of the soup.

I started out today. I have to say it's not so bad. However, I did make a mistake I had my usual cup of coffee with half and half and 1 splenda this morning. Oooops!

So, minus that little mistake, I have been doing really well. I had cantaloupe and watermelon for breakfast. I had a bowl of soup for lunch with a few chunks of watermelon, and I plan to eat it again for dinner with some more cantaloupe and watermelon chunks, and maybe some granny smith apple slices.

The soup itself I actually tweeked just the slightest bit. I added some minced garlic and red pepper flakes to spice it up a bit. It's really good. I happen to really like it. I don't know about anyone elses taste, but I don't mind it at all. I don't add any salt or anything extra. I also did crushed tomatoes instead of diced because I grabbed the wrong kind when I was shopping, but either way it still tastes great.

I think I can definitely commit and follow this for 7 days. I'm all in! Can't wait to see what the scale says come weigh in day this Friday!

Now the hard part... FORCING EXERCISE.

This is my new Motto! I love it! That is what I need to do.... SUCK IT UP and do the exercise, I'm tired of sucking it in. I just need to get going and make it a routine in my life.