Friday Weigh In!!

I weighed in this morning and I am happy to say I am down 3 pounds this week! For a total of 12.2 pounds! I am so freaking happy! I weighed what I weigh today back in February when I had started weight watchers and gotten sick with the flu and couldn't keep anything down. It's definitely been hard this week, and I cheated here n there, but I still feel good knowing I'm down 3 pounds! I just need to keep this up.

I only worked out 2 days this week. That's still something I am trying to enforce but I struggle with wanting to do it! 2 days is better than no days!

I hope everyone has a fantabulous Friday!

Fourth of July Fun and Induction

Yesterday was a pretty busy day with the holiday and all, so I really didn't get the opportunity to post about anything.

I struggled with the decision of it being a holiday and staying completely on track with induction or splurging since some things I rarely get- only about once a year.

I was good, I managed to get through the cookout with just a steak a little steak sauce and a corn on the cob ( i understand its not induction friendly, but for the carb count I had, I could afford that splurge) a little whipped topping for dessert when it came time for all the cakes:::sigh:::. Then once we hit off to Fantasy Island for the fireworks, well that's where I went ahead and ate the fried dough. I rarely get those, so I splurged there and went off my diet. My body definitely is in the works of changing because after a little bit, I was so tired from the sugar, and i started to get symptoms of sugar dumping- first being the mild blurred vision. It's funny that in just 9 days your body can rid yourself of the sugar and know that it hasn't had it in a while, so the reaction time of taking in junk like that is extremely noticable.

On another note, I picked right back where I left off and am continuing on without any set backs. I knew one way or another... something was going to get me, and I would eat it because I do struggle with food issues. I'm happy with the fact that I chose not to overdue it though! I ate in moderation and moved on. It's a new Day!

Once again in my life, I am mending a broken heart, I just want things to change and be different, and I want to keep him in my life, I don't have time to deal with it, so I'll put it off ... back to studying- boards in just a few days!!

Taking a Break

I need a break. That's why I haven't posted in a while. I'm going through too much emotionally and mentally, and its not allowing me to put my all into changing my life and weight.

I still plan to work on things, mostly cutting back and incorporating exercising into my daily life. I just don't have an exact set way of eating.

This vs. That

I'm always up in the air with my weightloss. I went to counseling today. I talked to my counselor about my effort in losing weight, and my lack of weight loss.

I always wonder about these programs. I was on weight waters. I did it for over 4 weeks, and lost and gained the same 5 pounds.

I stopped doing weight watchers, the day I weighed in at 216.0. I had been on WW for almost 5 weeks, the first week I literally lost 5 pounds. I started it at 219.0... I struggled for the following weeks, finally getting fed up with my progress, and throwing in the towel. I don't understand. I see all these people who have such success on weight watchers, and drop weight every week, and when I say drop weight I mean in high numbers. Some losing between 3-5 pounds a week. I guess where, I get upset is because these people are having progress by changing solely what their eating- and not even working out. I tracked my progress. Wrote down everything I ate, and counted its point value- for a fluctuating hell of 5 pounds? That's all I get, to only gain 2 pounds back and finally say the hell with it!

I decided to do this low carb thing. With low carb I gave up anything amounting to more than 20 grams of carbohydrates a day. I gave up bread, pasta, rice, potatoes, ice cream, fruit, etc. I'm still merely in induction, and though I've allowed myself to have a few cheat days and a week off, I am struggling with this too! Another 5 pounds of nothing but struggle! I started this plan weighing 216.0. I lost 5 pounds the first week. I made it to 211.0. I continue to fluctuate, and even with a week off- I gained 3 pounds. The only difference in low carb is that I started taking measurements. On low carb, I do feel a difference in how I feel, but I get aggravated because I just want to be able to eat whatever I want. I get frustrated because in the first week last time I lost 5 pounds, when the average was 9 pounds.

The counselor says it's stress. My body isn't going to lose weight with my level of stress. Now that they've changed my antidepressant, and my anxiety meds, I won't start to feel any changes for about another 2 weeks. I look forward to those next 2 weeks. I want to feel better, and I want to lift some weight off my shoulders. Of course it's not a permanent fix, but it's a start to get out of the funk I'm in and gain my life back, and lose some weight. Today was the first day of taking the paxil- so far so good, I just feel a slight nausea as they said it would. Lucky for me it makes it so that I don't want to eat, and it sort of takes the edge off my emotions.

I hate to say it, but if this doesn't work. If doing low carb is going to fail me again- I'm going back to a medical weightloss doctor to see what they will do. Even if that means shakes and pills. I'm that fed up with my progress.

I know I need to do my part, and I feel like I do when it comes to eating. I really need to push fluids- more water, because I don't drink nearly enough water!

I need to push myself to workout. I need an exercise routine, or someone to go with. I wish I had a partner, or someone who was supportive and motivated me to go out and do different activities to get me moving.

It's raining, otherwise I would have gotten out the bikes and had my little brother go for a bike ride with me. He'd probably enjoy it seeing as how he's on summer break and rain is not his ideal of fun. It makes me want to curl up with a cup of tea and a book in my bed and read til I fall asleep.

My doctor visit, and dealing with emotional eating.

I went to the Doctor yesterday. They decided that with my lack of sleep, and lack of energy, and how I'm feeling emotionally- It's time for me to go back on meds to regulate my moods, and feelings. They prescribed my Paxil. I start that today, along with amitriptilyne (totally wrong I'm sure) to help me sleep.

I have a counseling appointment at 1:00pm. I generally see a counselor once a month. It used to be every week to 2 weeks, but I've gotten better. I have had a lot go on in my life over the last 5 years. Somethings I've been able to deal with, and others... I haven't, or still deal with now.

At the doctor, on their scale I was 214.2- So I was up .2... Today I of course weighed myself at home and the scale said 212.2- If only I could lose those 2.2. I'm still working on reaching my 5 percent goal. Its extremely slow going. They said after the first 2 weeks of this new medicine, I'll notice a difference in how I feel emotionally, and my energy level. I hope so. I hate that I have to go back on meds, but my depression is a factor is why my weight went from 167 all the way up to 228 at my highest (of course I dealt with pregnancies- miscarriages, and ectopic pregnancies- so my body gained and changed during all those phases in my life) I weighed 167 in 2007- I was wearing some size 6's but mostly size 8's and even 10's- it was really dependent upon the make and brand of clothing. I was happy then...by 2008- my gain began. I would be happy in a 10 again- even a 12.

I'm hoping things will get better in the next 2 weeks.

I'm definitely content with low carb eating. It's not even a struggle. It wasn't a struggle to get started back on it again either. Don't get me wrong. I miss fresh fruit, and bread, and my sweets sometimes, but once I get through my 14 day induction or so- we'll see what happens and where I go from there! Rounds 2 started June 19th- and I'm doing good. But my emotions are causing me to eat even when I'm not hungry.

Hamburgers Mmmmm

Yes! I will go back to weighing myself everyday... because that's what I do. I hate that I obsess over the number on the scale, but I want to get below 200. When I weighed myself yesterday I was 214.6. Today I weighed in at 214.0. It's slow going but .6 is a lot and good when you figure I just went back to low carb yesterday!Now if only I could lose a little everyday! Then it would be perfect. This time I'm following much more closely what I am eating. I kinda know the carb counts for what I am eating, so I just know instead of posting it next to every little thing I eat on my record.

Ever since I started this, I have a terrible want for hamburgers. Suddenly I love to eat hamburgers. At least there is something that I could be happy with eating every single day!

I'm going to attempt to drink more water today.

I'm also going to attempt to get a workout it. I have to do it. I have to stop putting it off and being lazy. I don't know why, normally I can jump right into exercise. Here lately I lack the ambition, desire, and energy to break a sweat. That hasn't come to me yet.

I feel good about what I eat. It just feels so simple. I would just like to see the loss. I know my body, and I kind of know I'm not going to get the results I want anytime soon, unless I kick my butt into high gear with some cardio!

15 pounds to go to One-derland!!

Why do I eat?

I realized today, that it was nothing to go back to eating low carb. I eat carbs because their there. I don't exactly have cravings. Well, once in a while I do. I realize more and more I do a lot of mindless eating. I eat to fulfill some boredom of some kind... or I eat just simply because it's there. I saw combos sitting on the counter this afternoon. I went to reach for some, and realized... HEY! those aren't for you. I wasn't even hungry.

I'm working on drinking water. 24oz so far today. I know it's not that much, but I'm working on it... and the night isnt over yet.

Exercise is something I need to do. I just lack the ambition there!

Changes... I'm working on making these changes! Step by step!

Research

After doing a lot of research this evening, I found where I fell short on much of my induction phase last time. It totally and completely explains WHY I only lost the 5 pounds and didn't have the 9-14 pound success that I kept reading most other's have.

I went to the official Atkin's site, and read through everything. I had no idea that they consider 1 packet of splenda to be 1 carb (problem #1- I was overusing the splenda)

I don't eat enough vegetables. According to the site, it says I could eat approximately 6 cups of loosely packed lettuce, and 2 cups of cooked vegetables. I wasn't eating nearly that much in vegetables. In fact I maybe had 2 cups a day.

I use a lot of heavy cream the site doesn't say anything about it. It just lists it as a part of the beverages and says to note the carb count.

I definitely have a meal plan set for the things I currently have in the house. It should last me through until Sunday. I'm going to try to really kick up the protein intake just to kick my butt into ketosis.

Time well spent. :)

The Downfalls...

Weeeeeell, I can say I started out good this morning, and for lunch ended up with a burger. I ate the bread- yes I'm guilty as charged! And I also had a mocha that my mother brought home for me. I guess I failed to mention I was starting over. It's a $5.00 drink, I drank it. I hate to see it go to waste.. that lead to my burger fix. I'm ok about it though. I messed up, and I'm owning it. So from here on out, I will get back on track to where I need and want to be.

I will say, the amount of chocolate in my iced mocha was SO OVERWHELMING! I actually added more skim milk to it, and some water. I was shocked. I honestly can't believe I used to drink a Venti Mocha nearly everyday. I look at the amount of money I'm saving not drinking those, but the sugar and sweetness really knocked me off my feet! It was really just that bad!

I know it will take me about 3 days to get back on track, and kick myself into a small/moderate ketosis, so I expect by Tuesday I will be right back where I need to be. However, I'm going to take the necessary steps to the extent of counting carbs, and calories and whatever I need to do during this induction phase.

I'm going to make myself a menu for the week. I'll use what I have in the house, and make a menu of it. Surprisingly I have a lot of low carb options to work with, so I won't even need to go shopping. I'll probably need a heavy cream, but that's probably all I'm going to need and a carton of eggs.

Water, I have to learn to drink more water. Force myself is more like it!

I feel like I'm going through a lot right now. I am. Breaking up, Letting go, Moving on...Getting myself together. All reasons I want to turn to food... but I have to find peace with all these issues and move forth and better myself.

I'm happy to say I have an interview for a new job tomorrow. So I have to get my emotions together, and myself together, and be ready for what's thrown at me tomorrow. I really hope everything goes well. I really want this job!

As Always, I am a total work in progress.

Starting OVER...

So, I've been gone for a little while... unfortunately! I won't make any excuses. Somehow I got really frustrated with my results. I became upset, and indulged in everything I've wanted to eat, that I had given up, because the numbers on the scale weren't going down, and inch wise, it's only little by very little.

Now, I know I don't need to be some rocket scientist to know that I can't be skinny or lose weight over night, but it's very discouraging to give up all the foods you love and substitute them for stuff your eating and seeing no changes.

I will say this, since taking my hiatus, I feel terrible- physically, emotionally, mentally. I'm exhausted. My energy is down- I really just feel blah! (on a side note, I do have other problems with anxiety, and depression- which is something I have an appt to follow up on with the doctor, so we will see what happens there- probably another cause to my lack of energy and laziness). Once I started eating carbs again, I'm just tired all the time. Other than the depressed state and stress factors of my life- I'm very tired. No matter what I eat, it's like I literally have to lay down.

Today is father's day! Happy Father's Day to my wonderful Daddy!! He's the best! I guess we're planning on going to dinner somewhere, so I'm sure there will be bread. Today will be my last day of carbs. Because starting tomorrow. I am starting over. I am making the changes I need to make in all areas of my life. I'm giving myself 6 months to get my life together (not get skinny or to goal but to get ME together).

More to come!!

Measurements, Weight, etc- I will get everything up to date!

Confession

This weightloss cycle is a constant rollercoaster in my life. I do extreme yo-yo dieting. I've taken diet pills, I've gone to see a medical weightloss doctor. I've done many things and many programs, but one things always stays true. I am 100% emotional eater. I eat when I'm sad, I eat when I'm depressed, I even eat when I'm happy- I celebrate with drinks- strawberry margarita's, and foods of all sorts. Anything that makes me feel better in that time. It generally relates to food. If not food, my other go-to is shopping. I'm a very mild manic depressive- which I was on anti-depressants for, however I chose to stop them. My depression is currently at moderate depending on what life throws at me, and my anxiety- well, thats another issue in itself. I know what is the cause of my anxiety.

Anyway- food is probably my worst addiction ever. I struggle and kill myself all the time, for such a small loss and then I get disappointed and turn to what comforts me- food, chocolate, ice cream, cookies- chocolate confetti pepridge farms cake (yes, I've sat an eaten a whole one in one sitting). I get to a point where I don't see the results everyone else sees quick enough, and I throw in the towel- as I did last night and ate the chinese food.

There are a number of things that are affecting me, and I just need to make the changes I need to make.

1. I need another job, yes I resigned my position at my current one, but there's some things going on in there that I don't agree with, and I just cannot work the overnight anymore. I've done much research and statistics show that people who work 3rd shift suffer a higher rate of depression, sleep deprivation/insomnia, and obesity, as well as other health problems. I struggle with a sleep schedule, and I gained weight from working this job. I think I need adequate amounts of sleep in order to remain healthy and maintain a healthy lifestyle. This weighs heavy on my health and weight loss success. I nap. I don't get the required amount of sleep and its stressful. Even though i chose to quit this job, I still worry about money, and when and where I will find my next job. My parents of course will help me out, but I hate to ask them for money. I'm getting too old for that.

2. I stress because I've loaned out a lot of money to a friend- I should just face the facts and come to terms with the fact that more than likely, I will never see the 3 grand I've shelled out in the last year. Yes, "borrow" was the word- but more times than not, people don't pay what they owe. I need to find a way to let it go. I can always find a job. I can always make more money. Stressing makes me want to turn to food.

3. School is hard- again stressful. I've put so much money into my education and being at this college for Nursing, and I find myself sometimes questioning... is nursing what I really want to get into? Self-doubt.

There's more, I know... but I'm so tired I need to go to sleep. I got off work at 8:30. I'm ready for sleep- and knowing me- sleep means a 3 hour nap at most, then I'm up for the rest of the day until I go back to work at midnight. 

I cheated...

In my moment of feeling like crap over the numbers on the scale not going down.. I cheated and ate chinese food. Enough said.

UGH! Tomorrow is a new day.

Confused...

Is it me or is it my scale?

I've been following this low carb plan and doing well. My appetite has decreased significantly and I'm eating less. I know I have a few problem areas too, because I need to eat more vegetables. I eat a lot of meat, and I'm not drinking enough water. I also need to workout. With all the meat I do eat, I'm always in moderate ketosis. Only once was I in Large Ketosis because I check alot.

I'm losing inches, small and slow, but their definitely leaving! I look at other blogs of people who lost between 9 and 14 pounds the first week. I realize I've had a couple cheat days in my plan, but I've only lost 5 pounds. When do the numbers on the scale start to go down?

Ahhh, my struggle! Ordinarily this would be the point in the past where I lose interest and say it's not working, and I want a different plan, but I'm content on this plan. I need to maybe measure better, and write everything down. Maybe I need to count exact carbs and look at my calorie intake? I feel stuck. I need fluids and exercise.

On another note June 11th is my last day of work. YES! I happily applied for a new job where a friend of mine works and she's trying to have them pull my application and put me through training starting the 25th of June. I so badly hope I can move on to something better with better benefits, higher pay, and better hours.

The weekend....

So my weekend went pretty good, relaxed and stress free. I'm so off schedule from picking up these days to work the overnights at that job though. I'm done on the 11th of June, and I have to say... I just can't do it anymore. I really thought about going back and staying since they asked me to, but I can't. I need to something that fits me much better because of my health, and the schedule of my life.

Sunday was great. Spent time with good people, and had the most amazing Indian food ever...delicious and well worth the cheat! I also went for coffee at the coffee place around the way, and yes...yes, shameful as it is- I purchased a glazed doughnut and ate it all!

Monday I got right back on track though.  I skipped weighing in on Monday, So I'm a day late on measurements and weight.

Last week wasn't the greatest, there was a number of things. I don't know if I eat too many calories, or if maybe my appetite has decreased so much on some days and I'm not eating enough.

I know my lack of interest in working out here lately is a problem too. I have no idea what the problem is because normally I enjoy working out. I'm able to push myself through and make myself go because I know I'll feel good when it's all said and done... but I just can't get up the energy to go! It's 5 days into a new month, so I have to get going and make changes for this month!

I want to see inches gone, and pounds dropped!

Food Today:

Breakfast:
Coffee w/ 1 tsp coffee mate 1 splenda
4 eggs ( only made 4 egg whites and 2 egg yolks)
salt & pepper

Snack:
English Breakfast Tea
2 tbsp heavy cream 1 splenda
2 pepperjack cheese sticks

Lunch:
Pizza Casserole ( i also got this recipe idea from Kelly's blog, however I didn't have the same ingredients. I used what I had at the house.)

Snack:
1 cup lettuce
2 tbsp ranch dressing

Dinner:
Pizza Casserole

*EXERCISE*
3 mile walk at the high school track while my brother played lacrosse

Gotta figure something out!

So I was called back into work (even though I gave my notice) They're asking me to work because they are so short staffed. I might help out for a while... but I quit for a reason.

One the shift totally sucks. It's 12am-10am, and that's 10 hours of where I do nothing but count medications, watch t.v. and of course EAT. So last night, keeping myself awake and trying to find something to snack on, I realized that 1 there was nothing in the place that I could eat. I'm pretty sure I kicked myself out or have such a Trace amount of Ketones is because of the amount of sugar free jello snack packs I ate last night. I had like 3 cheese sticks too. That's the problem in working  shift like that- that's also where most of my weight gain came from. So now, when I go back in tonight at midnight, I need to have a better plan packed with me. My eating schedule is clearly messed up now because I came home at 8am( i left early) and went right to sleep. I got up and had breakfast at 2pm which was a left over burger with mayo, mustard and a thin slice of onion. I gotta put myself back into ketosis.

Still a no go with the gym- I don't know what is with me!! I need to get myself together and MAKE MYSELF GO! I need a routine!

It's cold, and rainy, and i don't have much of any energy at all. I don't know what to expect come weigh in and measurements day!

Just Not Feelin It...

I don't know what is with me. Strangely, ever since I've started this low carb change, my appetite has decreased significantly... which I cannot say that I am at all complaining about it. I'm still in my induction phase which I planned to do for 2 weeks. I'm actually okay and content on how I'm eating, that I may continue with it for a week longer and then progress with adding a little more to it like sunflower seeds and etc.

I actually have planned a few cheat days for the month of June so I am trying to be as good as possible, while I am able. This coming Sunday, I have lunch plans with an old friend to go to this new Taste of India restaurant, though I'm sure I could find a way to eat low carb, I want to go and eat the white rice that is available. I know there's a significant amount of Carbs in Rice, but it's only 1 day for 1 meal. I plan to eat in moderation. Sadly, I am very excited to go eat, but also to spend time with my friend. She is one of the best people I know in life! I'm looking forward to it!

Then, on June 15th, I am hosting a purse party with all my girlfriends. That is also a cheat day because of the alcohol consumption- and one thing I'm good at making is jello shots, and strawberry margaritas! So I plan to have a couple of those.

and lastly, June 24th will be a cheat day because it is my niece's baptism, and there will be tons of food for the party afterward here at the house. Some foods that I know I won't be able to pass up.

In such an odd way, I'm very content. However, I am just not into working out. Normally that's my savior and outlet, but here lately I just can't get my butt going. That's what happens though, you slack too many days too long, and trying to push yourself to go is a struggle. I hate that I have no motivation to go because after the first 3 days of pushing yourself, you start feeling guilty when you don't go because you feel so good when it's done. I have to get back on track with that immediately! When I don't go, it's almost like I can feel myself getting weaker.

I am so close to my 5 percent goal. I'm eating what feels best for me and keeps me feeling full, I'm not exactly counting for exact carbs, sometimes I'm sure it's less, and other days, I know I have to be over, but it even's itself out in a way. If I lost another 5 pounds this week, I'd be thrilled, but I have to get on the move with this exercising!!

Food Labels... smh

Today I made a quick stop at the grocery store, because I needed to grabbed a couple things and as I walked around Tops, I realize that they SUCK! But I swear it is just this store on the Island. I needed heavy cream and the 2 brands they carry were 1 super expensive $4.79 for a small one, and 2.59 for like a lunch box milk carton size you get in school! Also, I notice their store brand has 2 carbs per 1 tbsp, and the other brand has 1 carb per tbsp. Not a good selection. Needless to say I walked out with 2 cans of pizza sauce because they were but 1 get 1 free, and 3 packages of hamburger that were on sale.

Soooo... I ventured over to super wal-mart and bought the great value brand of heavy whipping cream which satisfyingly has 0 carbs per 2 tbsp- I think. Anyhoo... It was also cheaper which is one thing I am all about! 5 dollars for heavy cream is not my idea of a good purchase. I would rather waste the gas and drive to wal-mart and get the brands I know have less carbs and etc! I also used a couple coupons while I was there that were on their way to expiring this week, so I got ice cream and lemon ice for the OTHER members of family in this house, that eat normal.

I was in the ice cream isle checking out the CarbSmart Brand and what a joke! They advertise 3g of carbs on the front of the box for a fudge pop... then on the vanilla ice cream covered in a chocolate shell they advertise 5g carbs.... I start reading the label and the fudge pop actually has 8g of carbs and the other 7g of carbs... I decided that those 6 dollar bars were not worth the purchase because I wouldn't stop and eat one in a day... I'd probably eat all 5 in the box.

I went over to the diet section where they keep the atkins shakes and bars, and I looked, and a couple things caught my eye but their pricey! 8 dollars a box for tiny bars.

I wish I could find a store that carries CarbLite Bars. My mom lived on those when she did low carb... but they seemed to have disappeared. I remember how good they were because at 13 yrs old, I used to steal them and eat them for myself, even though they were expensive...lol I'll have to do some research and shop around!

Guilty Cheat Day... :/

With yesterday being Memorial Day, the family came over for a cook out. My family was kind enough to try to keep everything low carb for me.

I ate really well, I ate chicken Kabobs, and a hamburger with mustard, mayo, and a little red onion.

I splurged and had a corn on the cobb with butter (only 1 small one)- and it was so sweet and yummy!

Then, I splurged and cheated again for dessert. I had a slice of "pig pickin' " cake that my mom makes, it's yellow cake with mandarins and pineapple in it. The the frosting is made of cool whip, vanilla pudding, and crushed pineapple. It was so good, but I definitely paid for it! I guess my body isn't used to the sugar, because I had gotten the worst head ache after eating this cake. Then I got really tired. I literally had to lay down and close my eyes for a good 30-45 mins.

Today, I'm feeling guilty because I'm feeling a little sluggish. I won't even attempt to get on the scale since after all I do that that scale OCD. I also feel blah, like I'm bloated or something. So not in the mood for wearing anything other than sweats- even if it is well into the 80's degree weather!

I have errands to run, resumes to print, woodwork in my bathroom to finish painting, and then there is no questions about it- I HAVE TO GO TO THE GYM, or go out and ride my bike... or do something that is going to make me break a sweat! This sweat from it being hot, isn't it! I need to work out, I always sort of dread going, but once I go and it's done, I feel so much more accomplished and better about myself!

I suppose if I'm feeling extra ambitious today I'll even tape off my bathroom cabinet and paint it white. It should have been done... but I'm slacking and things need to get done around here!

Hope you all had a Happy Holiday.

Oficially a whole Week!

I've managed to stay on a low carb diet for a full week, and the funny thing is... I'm full, and I hardly ever think about food. Every now and then I find myself wanting Ice Cream, which is something I normally wouldn't want to eat unless it was in the house or everyone was heading out to DQ.

I planned that tomorrow would be a day where I would cheat and go off and eat whats around, but I don't know if I will, my mom is planning to make things low carb for me, and I'm actually not so sure that I want anything other than what I've already been eating.

They say all it takes it 5 days to break an old habit and start a new one... and here I am 7 days later and very content!

Weigh In, and measurements to come tomorrow!

Night of Baking: Cancelled!

I had planned to test out 2 different versions of Atkin's Revolution rolls this evening, however my plan was cancelled since a friend and her daughter came over. I love kids, but wholly cow! I don't know if or when I'll be ready for a child... I have patience, but boy do I love silence too! haha This little girl is just too cute though! You can't help but love her.

Anyway, it was a good night. We sat around talking and laughing and looking up people on facebook (no we were not facebook stalkers) but looking up old ex's new girlfriends and people of the past can sometimes be funny, it was all in good fun and laughs.

We ate string cheese...LOL the appetizer of choice since I was low on entertaining foods, had I known in advance I would've looked up low carb friendly appetizers to whip up. I offered chips and what not, but she wanted string cheese too...lol

Tomorrow mornings plan is to definitely test out my recipes! I'm so looking forward to it!!